My Arms Are Shaking Like A Lightning Rod

Hey derek. I was thinking.

The wedding'll be in basel, duh. Or do you think we should get it done at sutera like our last marriage? Also, we need to go over the guest list asap. And about the theme, i'm thinking mafia. But that is negotiable. And the favors. Tommy guns? It'd be preeeeetty memorable. Just sayin.

Dude pick a date and lemme know.

Gosh. Planning a wedding is so stressful. :/

One Of Us Misread

I can understand how you might feel bad that i'm always picking you guys up or that we go out to hang out with people i hardly know. But the truth is i don't mind any of it. I just genuinely like spending time with you guys in any way that we can cause time we have left together is short and i need to squeeze as much time in before i'm blown away to some other country.

We might live far apart from each other, but what is that distance compared to the one that will be standing between us in a month's time?

I. Am. So. Tired. :(

You'll Never Take That Away

I don't really care if i tell other people i miss them or whatever, they don't say it back and they kasi kuyak me and maybe even say crap like alaaaaaaaaa i didn't even think about you pun. but when it comes to a friendship of our calibre, it's just not done. i should be seeped so deep into your subconscious that you don't even realise you're missing me but all you'll feel is a physical empty feeling somewhere in your chest. Then you'll try to figure out why you feel so down. And tiba tiba it'll hit you. Omgatz. Somewhere in the world, right now. Steffi's missing me. Then you'll send me a telepathic message. Nahhhhh. Like that ma.

I have way too much time on my hands.

I'm Better Off On My Own

Blog post!

Okay.

I'm bored and have been too lazy to turn on my computer to upload videos. :P and i have been making videos.

Happy new year even though it's been new year for 9 days now. I haven't been doing anything and i don't know what i will be.

Let's hope i make a real update soon. :)

Steffi

Five Minutes To Midnight

Happy new year. 2010 baby.

New year's eve. Nerd style. ;)

I want photos please.

-S
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Cause My Jealous Heart Can't Take This

Hey guys!

Christmas will be spent in Brisbane. :) We've been going to Ikea a lot. :P the meatballs are delicious. right.

CONGRATULATIONS TO DEREK!!! <333333

SO SO PROUD OF YOU. :D

I've been watching a lot of series(serieses?!) ahahha and it's so hot. (THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID)

hehehehehehee. aiyooooo jemeh my darling is in the shower and i'm waiting for her.

I'm sorry i haven't uploaded any photos or anything but i never know what i'm going to blog about and i don't spend a lot of time on these posts. Just a quick mind puke to put my mind at ease. :)

I WATCHED AVATAR. not the airbender. But the other one with blue people. It was so nice. The storyline was the usual love story but it was so nice and imaginative. For 3 hours, i felt like i wasn't on earth. It was beautiful. :) GO WATCH IT! :D

Anyways, it's late and i should get to bed. :) Mm, okay. One game. :)

Sink

Steff

Maybe I'll Just Sing About It

AHHHHHHH DEREKYONGQUOTUNG

IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
I wish i could celebrate with you at least once in the duration of our insanely awesome kickass friendship but alas, it was not in the stars. :(

But whatever because all i need to know is that you're somewhere safe and having a good time. :) which i do cause i just confirmed that with you. :P

Aannnnyyywaayyyssss, love you and happy birthday, kid. ;) Finally seventeen.

Ninja. <3

Sing Me A Song

Hello, darlings.

Brisbane is so hot this time of year. Summer time. Speaking of Summer, I watch 500 days of summer the other day. i love that movie. <3

My sisters and Shannon went to the airport to send Tomford off, who's going back to KK. Just got word that his flight was delayed. guhhhhh i want to... Actually i don't know what i want or what i want to do. I just know i miss my friends and my bed. :P man i miss my bed.

Currently laid like a pancake out on the couch, listening to pixie and staring at the giant spongebob and gang poster. xD Yeah next year's gonna be a blast. Internet in Brisbane is insane!!! Movies i've been downloading for months, finished in half an hour. Unbelievable!

I miss you guys so much. I've been going online really late to chat with danile and jamie. <3

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AARON HENG!

How was that? Let's play an esoteric game. ;) luck.
Kal-El

Steffi

Send Me Emails Cause I'll Miss You!

;)

How Could You Be So Cold?

Hola blog readers!

It's the end of the year! Spm is over. I can hardly believe it myself. Secondary school is officially over as i won't be staying for Senior Three. But i'm highly anticipating Sports Meet 2010! Go yellow house!

Anyways, i'll be going off to Brisbane tomorrow morning(later) since one of my sisters is graduating. We'll be spending Christmas in Melbourne with family which is new. I'll be back on the 29th december, so mark your calendars!

Will miss you all! Fay, emily, jemeh, karan, danile, hydraulix gang. I already miss Derek! Aiyoooooo i have a long day ahead of me!! Charge my ipod, pick a good book and i'll be seeing my family in a few hours.

Aiyaiyaiyai! I STILL HAVE SOME PACKING TO DO! :/ yes, big fail. Love you all! Good luck on your jpj exam, claudia! Congratulations on getting your licence, lexis. Too bad we didn't get to hang out before today. And omgah. Did you hear? Brigitte is back in town!! ;) go welcome her home!!!!!

Steff. C:

Don't Talk About Things You Don't Understand

Yeah. I'm talking to you. With your contrived eagle eye view on everyone's lives you think you understand perspiciously. Cause sometimes, it's good to keep your mouth shut.

It's Wearing Me Down

:DDDDDD
Spm is almost over.
Got my diving licence.
VJ shoot tomorrow.
Last subject next week.
D:
Karan's not here.
Haven't seen any movies. Not even 2012.
Banyak orang leaving.
Don't have Dexter.

Weeeehoooo. I need to empty my cameras into the computer because i'm out of space but skrg i malas so i'm not gonna do it. Have lots of pictures of the yellow house orientation and and and. That's all i can think of off the top of my head. :/

The photo di atas saaaannnaaaa tu was sent to me by Hanafiah. He's one half of the couple who went diving with me during the period of my course. They were my friends for 2 whole days under the sea. *cue teh musek plz* A very awesome couple from kl who work for Petronas. Wheeeee. They had those expensive waterproof camera cases. It was funnn!!! Will update you guys on a bit later ey?

Steff

Secrets That You Just Can't Keep

One-sentenced blogging still lives, aaron.

Burn Brighter

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spm spm spm spm spm.

Not as bad as you'd think it'd be.

Good news.

I'll never have to get a quick cram session from Charlene about the silly malay stories/poems and what their antagonists do.

Same goes for Sejarah. I actually don't mind history. but having us study it in bm blows. Somehow we managed to have Chinese History and Sejarah but no history in english? puh. Glad that's over.

We had EST today. It was ehhh okay. Essay topic was on friction. Physics topics. Thank God i still remember my form 4 Phys. :D

i know what you're thinking.

Pro. ;D

hahahahah est is fun. Being sick unfortunately, is not.

I haven't been in the mood these days. I haven't been in any mood, actually.

My brain's on hold most of the time. At least that's how it feels.

Well, it's better than thinking uncontrollably. Less tiring.

Karan's going to Brisbane on Sunday. :'( She's going to see Green Day in concert. :''(

darn spm. Also, she's coming back a day before i fly off.

Which means the chances of me seeing her this year is not likely at all.

I wanna play blue mask. And see your liquid leggings. :'((( ndak jadi.

Try we get lunch w/ yemeh before you go off? Maybe tomorrow?

no more 10 second crazy rawrganasss shots. :P

Well, you better post the Mcflurry song when you're in Bris. At least the internet is chepatsss. :D

REMINDER. SHIRT. FROM. CONCERT. if can la. :)

Yellow house news:

We have to meet with the newbies of ttss on thursday during their orientation. Wear Yellow.

Our mascot's Homer. I'm sure a last name is not necessary. Wheee.

I watched Surrogates today at home. It was eehhhokay. I mean, imaginative but surprisingly, i didn't find anything special about it. Not hungry oh today. Don't know why. Unproductive too.

I think i'm going to head out. Find something to do.

Whuat? you want photos? Teda oh sorry. :x

i'll try. k.

Steff.

Spend Every Moment I Had With You

I know you're not fairy. That's not you anymore. I miss our directionless conversations, late night phone calls, if-a-horde-of-zombies-came-right-now situations, cs-campzones-in-your-house discussions, seeing you at metro, text messages containing simpsons, rawr, hwyd, GGKKTYBB, pinching my face, dancing around in K house foyer, what's your 20?, report to base camp, one-worded text messages, being the bearer of bad news about 'fictional' characters(pffftt the tooth fairy SO exists!), sitting around discussing cushions, talking about child labour, fighting for food to survive with an ogre, making exits before we're supposed to, buying cheap useless crap we know we're never gonna use again ever, dissing each other's music, bone crushing hugs and random mms-es. I know you're under housearrest so make the most of it. Kick some spm ass like i know you can. I'll see you when you get out, bub.

Big hello to big photoshoot before big bye to me? :3

You know i love you to twenty kabajillion to the power infinity x infinity squared bits, right? <3

They Won't Even Miss You At All

Hey guys. I haven't updated in a longggg time. Apologies. Much has been going on and i haven't found the time or energy to blog about anything.

Basically, here's what you've missed if you do not follow me on twitter.
Our dance team got first in Tshung Tsin Star. I got my driving licence. We are currently maidless. Spm is starting on Wednesday. School is officially over, not counting the days we need to go back to school for spm. Been eating too much. Running in the rain somehow didn't get me sick but durians did. I haven't started studying. We've run out of Bundaberg. We just got Bundaberg. I need to start packing for Brisbane.

study tmr. Must.
Steff

All At Once

I need to know that this feeling will pass. That maybe one day i'll wake up and not think of you. Not even a little. I'll be able to get through a conversation without thinking he always said that. I'll have my insomnia without having to wonder whether or not you're awake. I'll hear my message tone and my mind and heart doesn't jump hoping it's from you. I won't remember things you've said when i'm where we were. I won't think of you when i'm reading poems or doing english literature. I won't remember all the corny things you've said just because you had to say it. It's taken a long time but it's finally fading. A big part of me is so relieved. But there will always be that little part of me that will want to remember. I'm getting there. It's so close now. But i'm starting to doubt whether or not it's what i really want.

Twice

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I Don't Know What To Do

It's hard to be perfectly honest when you yourself find that sometimes the things you think are just plain mean. I really need to control my thoughts better. I'm losing control and i find myself arguing with myself whether or not i'm being a total bitch or what i'm thinking is reasonable.

I hate it when my brain kicks into overdrive and i'm thinking about all the things i think you're thinking about when i can't sleep. It does not help at all. I'm losing my mind!!!

Another thing i feel like ranting about, the awkwardness. Don't you absolutely abhor the awkwardness that exists after something happens between friends of a group. And suddenly, the group is forced to pick between the two. Conversation pieces that used to thrill in turn, become taboo. And you find yourself constantly stopped mid sentence by your own brain screaming that you can't go there.

ARGHHHHHHH.

Why is it so hard to be friends again? Yeah, i get it. Believe me. I do. Something between you. BUT DON'T YOU SEE IT'S KILLING THE GROUP? :( I hate events that we used to go to together but now someone needs to find another group to go with cause it'd be too weird sitting at the same table. It sucks. So much.

And frankly, i'm sick of it. Yes, i know i should be prepping myself for SPM and putting my insomnia to good use. I doubt that's gonna happen. I've been listening to this song for about 2 hours now. Maybe it's too soon. I'm rushing things? Oh gosh. Am i? Maybe i'm not ready.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh self doubt is not what i need right now at this particular moment in time.

Note to self: Pay Karan and pass tickets.

I have bad memory. I mean, really bad memory. I have trouble remembering what i did earlier in the day. Mom says i'm just lazy but i resent that cause there are some pretty important stuff i know i need to remember and it's imperative that i do. So the next possibility would be... stupidity? It's definitely a more likely reason. :P

Hence, i am always writing reminders anywhere. Explains my often tainted arm or hand or table or wall. Scribbling in my planner. Writing things down just so i'll remember the next day. hahaha i think my brain is deteriorating really quickly for a 17 year old.

Everything's so much more complicated when you're right there in front of me. :(((((( i'm feeling whiny. ahahahha i'm sorry. When that happens, it's hard for me to write well.

Oh right. CONGRATULATIONS ARE IN ORDER!

Derek, you got into Trinity. That is really awesome. :D Proud of you!

For all of you guys who aren't done with exams yet, SHOULDER TO THE WHEEL! :D

And for all of you who ARE done with your exams, BURN YOUR BOOKS. :DDDDDDD

aih susahla for me to not be emo.

steff.

To The Stars

:D Audio update! :D

Steff.