Like You Never Lost A War

Sometimes i forget this is here. SORRY. I've been busy. Also, this just in, i say "I've been busy" a lot. But whenever i try to think back and find out what i've been so busy with. It's always blank. I think I'm more tired than i am busy. Don't get me wrong, I am busy. It's just, by the end of the day, it's likely i'm so tired from the all the accumilating events that i can't really remember what i did that day. Oh yeah. That and i have very bad memory. And i mean really bad memory. So. That's the end of that psychoanalysis. That excuse is getting old.

I have a better one though. I've been sick. A lot of people have been sick. It's just flu season. Which is a bad thing! You guys should eat your vitamin C and multivitamin and cod liver oil. Stay healthy and try your best to avoid this annoying period of time. There was a point when i had to stay at home to rest. I know how that sounds.

Gosh, steffi's so lucky. She doesn't have to go to school and study and be tortured.

Well, you know what? Do you know how much it sucks to be at home and want to sleep but can't? Sometimes people are just stupid. Daddy dislikes me using that word. Therefore i shall replace it with silly.

So, I'm eating apples, checking my mail and listening to an album i just downloaded. (yes i am a pirate) Arr Matey! I have an EST presentation on something to do with technology tomorrow and i haven't made my powerpoint yet. Wondering how i'm going to pull it off. Hmm. I haven't even decided on a topic yet. I should probably work on my powerpoint presentation now ey?

You Thought It'd Be So Easy To Fool Me

Hahahahahha i have a huge biology test tomorrow. But i haven't studied.

God i'm irresponsible.

oh that and i'm dying. :)

I'm Tired Of Trying To Be Sensible

When did i let myself become this spineless girl that i loathe. Gosh. I disgust myself. Thanks to you, one day she just decided it was alright for her to come out. Was too blinded to stop her back then. Now that my vision's cleared. All i can say is buh-bye.

Well, i'm back. Try not to hate me for it.

Cry For All The Things You'll Never Be

Bundaberg!!!

I want it so bad. I can't find it anywhere anymore. Grrrggullluhhh!!

Here is where i put aside my Ewok cries and apologize once again. It seems that i have been doing that a lot lately. The reason i am apologizing to my blog is because i've been updating through my phone. And through this phone, the blogger browser does not have upload picture or font or hyperlink or anything else for that matter. All that's here under the title, is spell check and preview. Which is... Useful. Yes. So, a picture update shall be the lovechild whenever i can get my hands on a computer that has internet access and has not blocked blogsites etc and when i am not gaming. :P hahaha

I have not been a happy camper. Not that i'm a camper. I'm speaking in both in-the-wilderness and in-cs-slash-cod-slash-any-war-games-really kinda sense. I can't explain it. Anywho i have two extremely difficult tests and a couple of essays due tomorrow, so i'm just going to crawl in bed [CHECK] and just sleep well thanks to the drugs. Not. Psych. Chyeah cause i'm just the poster child for heroin and erectile dysfunction.

Sorry. It's just been a really long week and i find myself daydreaming about falling. Chyeah cause everybody loves to fall.

Bye bye my sweet bloggers/bloghoppers.
Hope you're all well.
This sounds so formal.

Steffiiii.

Unhealthy Obsession

It's nice having Charlene back in town. Series marathons to have, late night cyber cafe, midnight mcdonalds runs, inside jokes, Tommy and Charlie practically living at our house. It's been fun. Wonder what it's going to be like next year. Nahhh... I think I'll leave that for next year. No point setting expectations that might not have been reached. In case you don't know me, that's the kind of person i am. I don't aim. I never aim. Well, you know, for basketball or whatever that's different. Hahah but i'm talking about goals. Things that most people aim for. For example, exam results. I have never aimed for UPSR, PMR, UEC. And i'm pretty sure i won't aim for SPM. I know that it's stupid that i'm not exercising my full potential and all that road-to-self-improvement crap. But that's just who i am. Who i've been for my whole life, really--- fine... until this point in my life, at least.

This really isn't a very bad tactic. Just think about it! No expectations = no disappointments. Hmmm maybe i'm being a coward. Eh, don't know. I know it's over but i've been feeling so tired. It's hard for me to catch up with my schedule. Strange. But then again, maybe it's cause i spend my nights updating my blog even though virtually no one reads it. :p

I owe you guys a huge update. :p Everything's been piling up. I need to get started before i'm buried alive.

Night, peeps.

IOU, steffi.

You Don't Know Me Like You Should

It still piques me how words can fail to evince one's adour, or lack thereof, rather. Isn't human nature ironic? All it took was one brief reverie to send me into the long overdue downward spiral into that hole that derek dug himself into. Now that he's out, it's vacant, which conveniently is what i've been these days. It's just the sheer absurdity of the timing and my inane choice. Sometimes i feel that i irk myself more than anybody else can. I can't submit to this plight.

Right. I forgot to tell you. It's over. ):)