Will I See You When I Open My Eyes?

So Student Fellowship Night was FREAKIN AWESOME!


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Hey guys!
It's nice to see some people still read my blog. ;)
As, I'm sure you can read above, says SFN was awesome!
I mean it!
Please stop giving credit and saying thanks to me
Cause I really didn't do anything.
Half the time Fay was running around, making phone calls,
I was in Cambodia/KL being useless.
Full credit to Fay!
Please stop making me feel guilty for being given credit!
It was so fun that I didn't get to take any pictures!
So, once I get pictures from other people,
I'll show you what you guys missed.
:D


Anyways, apparently school starts in a week.
I had no idea until i read Daryl C.'s pm.
:/
I'm really not looking forward to next year.
Every class got reshuffled.
Which means we wasted a whole year getting to know people who we thought we were going to spend the rest of our high school years with.
And when I say wasted, I don't mean that in a bad way.
It just really makes me mad that the school would screw us over just cause their teachers' can't handle our unity.
Screw it.
So, I'm in Zhong next year.
I have absolutely no idea who my form teacher is going to be.
Absolutely no idea who i'm going to be hanging out with.
I think its very likely i'm going to be a pariah next year.
I don't think i'll have time to get to know every single person all over again.
I don't think i want to get to know every single person all over again.
Next year's gonna be a shitload.
And I know all you people born in 1992 agree with me.


We have one more day in 2008.
I'm really going to miss 2008.
Its the year i met and got close.
The year i really understood.
The year i found out who i could trust.
The year i figured out who i could depend on.
The year i learned not to fall.
The year i learned not to give.
The year i fell.
The year i said hello and goodbye.
The year we grew apart.
The year i missed you guys so much.
The year that's going to be the last.
The year we sang.
The year you smothered.
The year i had great fun.
The year that left me with enough battle wounds for a lifetime.
The year it rocked my world.
The year we fought so hard.
The year we messed up.
The year you left.
The year we talked in crazy banters.
The year we wrote and wrote.
The year we both got screwed over.
The year i forgave you both.
The year i looked but couldn't find.
The year you hated me.
The year i hated you.
The year we loved.
The year i broke.
The year we ran like hell.
The year we hugged like we were about to die.
The year you kissed me.
The year we held onto each other.
The year i didn't call.
The year i'm sorry i didn't spend more time with you. and now you're leaving.
The year we lost track of everything.
The year i called you an assface. hahahahh
The year i skipped class trip for SFN.
The year i got Frank.
The year i went on hiatus from life.
The year i really got into it.
The year i couldn't handle it all.
The year tennis came to be.
The year i had to change beach.
The year i didn't know what to say.
The year i lost it.
The year you came back.
The year you were really there for me.
The year i'm going to miss.
The year i'm going to tell my grandchildren about when i'm old and wrinkly.
The year i shook.
The year we'll remember.
The year we won't soon forget.
The year we have to say goodbye to.
The year we'll have to leave behind.

I hadn't planned that to be so long.
:(
but the memories suddenly all came back.
I had actually said in my head that i would not do such a lame thing
such as make a recap. But....
ahhahahhhaah i'm sorry!!!

I was listening to my old playlists compiled this year.
And everything just came flooding back.
A whole array of emotions suddenly struck me.
And suddenly i was feeling what i was at the time i compiled the playlist.
It was phenomenal.
I know it doesn't sound like a big deal.
But whatever.
Who gives a toilet bowl about what you think?

Please. Don't hate me.
ahahhahahahahhahahahahhahhaha
Love me or hate me.
I am still me.
And i won't conform just so you'll like me.
You can't change me.
So you'd better adjust your expectations.
That way you won't get disappointed.
See? Its a win win situation.
I don't change for you. And you don't get let down.
Don't be sad cause i'm not who you think i am.
Cause it would suck that you're actually wasting your time being bitter all the time.
Cause honestly, I couldn't care less.
:D

As for those of you whom i call friends,
I love you.
Honestly,
You have no idea how many moments of my life became moments in my life
Because of you guys.
I honest to goodness love you guys.
Without you guys, my life would be an empty book.
Please never change?

Damn.
I suck at emotions.
I wayyy too emotional.
You don't have to tell me
Cause I already know that.
But thanks anyways.

Oh, look.
Its 12.30am already.
Which means its officially the last day of the year.
Huzzah!
Joy!
I'm being sarcastic!
Yay!
hahaahhha
What are your new years plans?
Let me know!!!
:D

Goodbye 2008
Warm welcomes to 2009?
Steffi.

We Believed That We Could Change Ourselves

HI EVERYONEZZZ!! I IZ HOMEZZZ!!!

HAHAHAHHA hi guys. I'm home. And why did I type it out again? Only in fear that people who don't know me think that i am one of those people who talk like this: THIS IS JUST AN EXAMPLE! "harloxx. how are eu todayzz?" ohmygosh, get some english lessons or something! hahahahhaha Anywhosenheimergleederfuushen, I am back from KL, Langkawi, Cambodia and anywhere else you've pegged me for going to. I came back around 9 last night. I might tell you about my trip if i weren't in such a rush. Oh, why am i in a rush, you asketh? Why, because it is Christmas Eve! With that, I wisheth thee a Merry Christmas Eve! What are my plans for tonight? Gosh, thou art either a very curious being OR you're too nosey. I'm going to dinner with my family at Little Italy. That place is the absolute best! And then I'm going over to Basel Church for our service. Then head over to Kyrugma House for the presents. *insert evil laughter here* *it should sound something like this* MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHHHADHFAKSJNHFK What are your plans? Currently suffering from food poisoning and diarrhea, Steffi. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE, ALL!! LOVEE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!!! what am i doing? why, i'm sprinkling love to everyone! ;)

No.

I can't believe i lost the only thing you ever gave me.

:(

I am sad now......

not to mention stupid.

I have to find it.
why'd you have to go?
Absolutely a must.

Woooooo Magick!

WOWZZZ!

It's only been a few hours since the retreat ended and already i see so many updates on the Worship Team retreat. hahahahh

You guys are just amazing!

ANYWAYS, it was awesome. And i promise to update on that a little later.

Cause right now, i'm tired. I have a headache. And I'm physically worn out.

Cause after my sister picked me up from Kyrugma House, we went swimming/gymming.

hahahhahhahahhaa. AHHH... i'm so tired.

And if you're wondering why i'm updating my blogs and not sleeping since i am so tired (as proclaimed above), it is because i can't sleep. I tried. :( and failed. again.

Anyways, since its kinda annoying to remember stuff that happened today.

I'll be talking about stuff that is yet to come. For example, my holiday plans and the upcoming "Student Fellowship Night". Which btw, is a horrible name for a party... :/ ahhahaha You have no idea how many people have come up to me asking whether this thing is a church event.

hahahah ITS A PARTY!!! NAME IS SOMETHING LESS LAME, PLEASE! :/ It's going to be on the 29th of December, which i recently was reminded that it's the date of our ex class' class trip reunion. Which i regretfully, cannot attend. :/ I know I sound horrible for picking a party over my ex class, but believe me when i say i have my reasons. And i don't have much of a choice.

As for my holiday plans, I'm leaving on the 11th of December, Thursday to Kuala Lumpur first. Then sometime after that, we're going ot Cambodia, which honestly I do not want to go to. Because quite frankly, I am disinterested in going to see the ruins of some old building that Tomb Raider filmed in. EVEN IF IT'S ONE OF THE SEVEN WONDERS OF THE WORLD! I'll be gone until the 23rd, which is when i return to Kota Kinabalu. :D Even though i'd have made it before Christmas, I will miss Derek's birthday. :'( I'm really sorry, Derek. I didn't plan this! I'll make it up to you, i promise!

Then, comes the Eklektos Christmas party and the "Student Fellowship Night" (seriously, this name will never stick)! So, i don't know. December is, surprisingly a very busy month. :/ And if you're interested in the "Student Fellowship Night", please talk to me, as i am one of the people selling tickets. HIT ME UP FOR INFO AND TICKETS!

I will update on the Worship Team Retreat ASAP. :D I'm tired. I'm talking to Daniel. I'm missing Andrew. I'm posting on Blogger instead of Xanga. I am Steffi. And I'm a paper tiger.