zomggggggggggg! Exam today.
At 4. At imperial hotel.
Ohmygosh i'm scared. Oh my kalua. Aahhh.
It didn't hit me until i typed it out.
Great job, stef. Nice, scaring yourself.
Ah shit. Ohmygosh it's today.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Saturday, June 27, 2009
You Must Live For Me Too
i was thinking, on my way back from violin class, that i was going to have to post a happy post.
:/ i'm sorry, this isn't going to be a happy post. :(
:( i'm not going to repeat how frickin annoyed i am. Or how tired. Cause i'm starting to hate myself, what say you huh? What chance do you guys have?
Anyways, i hope tomorrow'll look up. I don't want to die. Wait. Do i? Nahhhh i'm not suicidal. :/
i don't think that you know what you've been missing
AHHHHHHH6HHHHHH FUGGIN ANIMAL FARM. :(
:/ i'm sorry, this isn't going to be a happy post. :(
:( i'm not going to repeat how frickin annoyed i am. Or how tired. Cause i'm starting to hate myself, what say you huh? What chance do you guys have?
Anyways, i hope tomorrow'll look up. I don't want to die. Wait. Do i? Nahhhh i'm not suicidal. :/
i don't think that you know what you've been missing
AHHHHHHH6HHHHHH FUGGIN ANIMAL FARM. :(
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
It's Not The Same Without You
Well, so much for freedom after tomorrow morning. I was so psyched and anxious for it to be over. But no. Of course it didn't come. Nope. Couldn't let me have it, could you?
Ughhh i'm so tired of this exam and all this preparation. Make my blood boil. While everyone's enjoying their last year, going out with friends to movies, islands for photoshoots, coffee houses to talk. Here i am, spending school hours at home, faking pneumonia, being sick, going through aural, playing double-stops. Gosh i swear it's torture. And truly, i'm sorry i'm being so whiny and sad and emo and jiwang and sad and emo and whiny and jiwang and sad and whiny. Oh wait, i said that already. :/
I don't know when the exam date is. Please don't postpone more than a week. Please don't postpone more than a week. I need this to be over. I really need this. I'm starting to hear myself internally recite relative majors and minors and subdominants and dominants and supertonic minors of keys. Arghhh it drives me mad. I think i'm losing my mind. There are times when my brain just hangs. Honestly. It just hangs for a few seconds.
I'm losing it. I'm confused. I'm sick. I've stopped feeling my hands. I'm sad. I'm miserable. I need you.
I'm sorry guys. Happy steffi just isn't going to be back quite yet.
Ughhh i'm so tired of this exam and all this preparation. Make my blood boil. While everyone's enjoying their last year, going out with friends to movies, islands for photoshoots, coffee houses to talk. Here i am, spending school hours at home, faking pneumonia, being sick, going through aural, playing double-stops. Gosh i swear it's torture. And truly, i'm sorry i'm being so whiny and sad and emo and jiwang and sad and emo and whiny and jiwang and sad and whiny. Oh wait, i said that already. :/
I don't know when the exam date is. Please don't postpone more than a week. Please don't postpone more than a week. I need this to be over. I really need this. I'm starting to hear myself internally recite relative majors and minors and subdominants and dominants and supertonic minors of keys. Arghhh it drives me mad. I think i'm losing my mind. There are times when my brain just hangs. Honestly. It just hangs for a few seconds.
I'm losing it. I'm confused. I'm sick. I've stopped feeling my hands. I'm sad. I'm miserable. I need you.
I'm sorry guys. Happy steffi just isn't going to be back quite yet.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
The Name That Puts An End To Death
I don't want to fade to black.
I can't be another silhouette in your lives.
When this moment is over, you'll forget me.
And everything we did, we talked about.
Then where would i be?
What would happen then?
Brief moment's goodbye?
As much as we'd like to believe,
Our time's running out.
When that last grain hits the pile,
You're gonna want to remember all the great things that happened.
Why waste time with these formalities?
T.C.
I can't be another silhouette in your lives.
When this moment is over, you'll forget me.
And everything we did, we talked about.
Then where would i be?
What would happen then?
Brief moment's goodbye?
As much as we'd like to believe,
Our time's running out.
When that last grain hits the pile,
You're gonna want to remember all the great things that happened.
Why waste time with these formalities?
T.C.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Never Knew I Could Hurt This Bad
oh god oh god oh god
I can't go back there again.
Can't go back again.
I just can't.
Imokayimokayimokay
Ohgodohgodohgod
Imokay.
Can't go back.
No no i can't go back.
Oh no.
No i can't.
Please don't make me go back.
No. No. No.
i'm okay. I'm fine.
Yeah. I'm good.
Yeap. Oh gosh.
Yeah i'm fine. I'm good.
I'm okay. I'm alive.
Okay okay.
I can't let myself go back there.
I'm good. I'm good.
Yeah i'm okay.
Oh gosh.
I'm okay
You're okay, steffi. You're okay
I can't go back there again.
Can't go back again.
I just can't.
Imokayimokayimokay
Ohgodohgodohgod
Imokay.
Can't go back.
No no i can't go back.
Oh no.
No i can't.
Please don't make me go back.
No. No. No.
i'm okay. I'm fine.
Yeah. I'm good.
Yeap. Oh gosh.
Yeah i'm fine. I'm good.
I'm okay. I'm alive.
Okay okay.
I can't let myself go back there.
I'm good. I'm good.
Yeah i'm okay.
Oh gosh.
I'm okay
You're okay, steffi. You're okay
Thursday, June 11, 2009
They Found You On The Bathroom Floor
Hey honey, i'm home!
Yeah, i've been back since tuesday night. The trip to Danum Valley and Sandakan was fun. It was nice to get away from my violin (finally). Even if it was a short break. I'm going to have to update you guys on that a bit later cause since i've been home, we've gone back to full time practicing. But fear not, good citizens! For it shall be a picture update. Or something... Mm hmm.
In a nutshell, the trip was fun, tiring, awesome. C: i shall go into detail after June. I'm sorry. This thing is taking a lot outta me. Anywhoosenheimergliderfooshen, school's starting next week. It is Wednesday. No wait, Thursday. And apart from those 4 days of the trip, it has not been holiday. So please don't ask me how i've spent my holidays or why i have been turning down your invites. :C i don't want to talk about it.
So, practice finishes about this time and starts at about 8.30 am. Spm art folio is due the second we step into school on Monday, and i haven't started at all. To put it lightly, i'm screwed. Lovely lovely lovely. Oh sarcasm has been running through me like blood these days and i haven't been the nicest person. Yes, i do realise i am kind of being a bitch. But sometimes you guys are just... URRGGHHHHH!!!! YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? Just consider yourself lucky i'm not allowed out of the house or i swear i'd go to your house if it were in perth and strangle you to death. I am not referring to anybody in perth. It was just an expression.
I am very sorry that i'm making your eyes bleed from reading my stupid whiny thoughts but that's just how it is at the moment. And you don't have to read it if you don't want to. You can come back after June and i promise the posts will be back to happy happy joy joy i'll teach your grandmother to suck eggs ren and stimpy shizz. Alright? Thank you.
UNSCRUPULOUS! HAHAHAHAHA LIT. CLASS PEOPLE, YOU KNOW WHAAAA I'M TALKING BOUT YO. HAHAHAHAAH
Yes. Yes. I can't understand if you told me just to tease me or you honestly meant well. For the maintenence of my outlook on people in general, i'm going to make myself believe it's the latter one and that your extra, extremely unnecessary for me to know information was not a blow beneath the belt of you flaunting your unbelievable treachery of the breach of trust between friends that you had the audacity of committing. Just now when i used it, it was just at random, but now... SIMPLY UNSCRUPULOUS! URGHH!! I honestly don't know how to put up with you. Or how to respond to you in general. I don't think i can have you around me or anywhere near me in fear of myself spontaneously combusting. In the process taking out the entire human race, including the good ones. :C Cause that would not be pretty at all.
What you did was unforgivable, still i forgave you. And still you taunt me. Yeah you won. Now can't you leave me be?
I'm so tired of all my fairweathered friends. Glad i still have a few i can vent to. But some of you guys are slipping away and I'm missing you guys so much. Ah.
Oh man, if only you knew how many times this post was edited to make it reader friendly.
Just. Ah.
Yeah, i've been back since tuesday night. The trip to Danum Valley and Sandakan was fun. It was nice to get away from my violin (finally). Even if it was a short break. I'm going to have to update you guys on that a bit later cause since i've been home, we've gone back to full time practicing. But fear not, good citizens! For it shall be a picture update. Or something... Mm hmm.
In a nutshell, the trip was fun, tiring, awesome. C: i shall go into detail after June. I'm sorry. This thing is taking a lot outta me. Anywhoosenheimergliderfooshen, school's starting next week. It is Wednesday. No wait, Thursday. And apart from those 4 days of the trip, it has not been holiday. So please don't ask me how i've spent my holidays or why i have been turning down your invites. :C i don't want to talk about it.
So, practice finishes about this time and starts at about 8.30 am. Spm art folio is due the second we step into school on Monday, and i haven't started at all. To put it lightly, i'm screwed. Lovely lovely lovely. Oh sarcasm has been running through me like blood these days and i haven't been the nicest person. Yes, i do realise i am kind of being a bitch. But sometimes you guys are just... URRGGHHHHH!!!! YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? Just consider yourself lucky i'm not allowed out of the house or i swear i'd go to your house if it were in perth and strangle you to death. I am not referring to anybody in perth. It was just an expression.
I am very sorry that i'm making your eyes bleed from reading my stupid whiny thoughts but that's just how it is at the moment. And you don't have to read it if you don't want to. You can come back after June and i promise the posts will be back to happy happy joy joy i'll teach your grandmother to suck eggs ren and stimpy shizz. Alright? Thank you.
UNSCRUPULOUS! HAHAHAHAHA LIT. CLASS PEOPLE, YOU KNOW WHAAAA I'M TALKING BOUT YO. HAHAHAHAAH
Yes. Yes. I can't understand if you told me just to tease me or you honestly meant well. For the maintenence of my outlook on people in general, i'm going to make myself believe it's the latter one and that your extra, extremely unnecessary for me to know information was not a blow beneath the belt of you flaunting your unbelievable treachery of the breach of trust between friends that you had the audacity of committing. Just now when i used it, it was just at random, but now... SIMPLY UNSCRUPULOUS! URGHH!! I honestly don't know how to put up with you. Or how to respond to you in general. I don't think i can have you around me or anywhere near me in fear of myself spontaneously combusting. In the process taking out the entire human race, including the good ones. :C Cause that would not be pretty at all.
What you did was unforgivable, still i forgave you. And still you taunt me. Yeah you won. Now can't you leave me be?
I'm so tired of all my fairweathered friends. Glad i still have a few i can vent to. But some of you guys are slipping away and I'm missing you guys so much. Ah.
Oh man, if only you knew how many times this post was edited to make it reader friendly.
Just. Ah.
Saturday, June 06, 2009
Greetings, earthlings (insert exclamation marks here)
Hello my dearest blog readers!
Hahahaha. Gay alert! Moving on. Hello. I am Aang and i am here to tell you that i am the last airbender and you had better not cross me or you will have to experience my awesome four-elements bending. Woah. Stay back. Cause i'm dangerous. Why did i just ask myself to stay back from myself when i am myself. That is physically impossible. At least i'm pekretty sure it is. Yes, pekretty. C:
... Right. Cause i actually came here to tell you that i am some hundred year old boy who has a giant blue arrow on my head. Actually, i'm here to tell you that i will be away until Wednesday next week. First off, i'm going to Danum Valley tomorrow morning which is in Lahad Datu. Those of you who follow my twitter should've known this for awhile. I'll be there for 2 days. Or nights. Actually i'm not really sure. :p yes yes, i suck.
After that i'm heading down (or up, don't really know(man, i suck)) to Sandakan. Lovely place. To watch the opening of the Saga Games. Awesome. A lot of you guys'll be there, so i hope to see you guys run/jump/whatever-you-will-be-doing. :D unfortunately while my parents will be busy, i'll probably be alone. Hopefully some of my friends can keep me company, though i doubt it. I'll just be the nerd walking around the place alone. Please don't rape me.
I actually haven't even started packing yet. And i have, wow 5 hours till i get on a plane to Lahad Datu and then a bus to Danum Valley, away from all communication. No reception, see? But i think i'll survive. Was hoping to keep you guys updated through twitter, but i don't think i'll do even that. Maybe i'll steal a little internet time from the main office just to let you know that i'm alive. Hahahahah just kidding!
I'll be fine. And i'm really looking forward to it, seeing as these past few days of holiday have been total lock down for me in my house. Violin is horrible. I'd advise you not to take it up. But then again, that's just me. :)
Not quite sure but i have a gut feeling that i will enjoy being away from internet, cell phone reception etc etc. :)
I'll miss you guys! You know who you are. C;
Steffi lah bah.
Hahahaha. Gay alert! Moving on. Hello. I am Aang and i am here to tell you that i am the last airbender and you had better not cross me or you will have to experience my awesome four-elements bending. Woah. Stay back. Cause i'm dangerous. Why did i just ask myself to stay back from myself when i am myself. That is physically impossible. At least i'm pekretty sure it is. Yes, pekretty. C:
... Right. Cause i actually came here to tell you that i am some hundred year old boy who has a giant blue arrow on my head. Actually, i'm here to tell you that i will be away until Wednesday next week. First off, i'm going to Danum Valley tomorrow morning which is in Lahad Datu. Those of you who follow my twitter should've known this for awhile. I'll be there for 2 days. Or nights. Actually i'm not really sure. :p yes yes, i suck.
After that i'm heading down (or up, don't really know(man, i suck)) to Sandakan. Lovely place. To watch the opening of the Saga Games. Awesome. A lot of you guys'll be there, so i hope to see you guys run/jump/whatever-you-will-be-doing. :D unfortunately while my parents will be busy, i'll probably be alone. Hopefully some of my friends can keep me company, though i doubt it. I'll just be the nerd walking around the place alone. Please don't rape me.
I actually haven't even started packing yet. And i have, wow 5 hours till i get on a plane to Lahad Datu and then a bus to Danum Valley, away from all communication. No reception, see? But i think i'll survive. Was hoping to keep you guys updated through twitter, but i don't think i'll do even that. Maybe i'll steal a little internet time from the main office just to let you know that i'm alive. Hahahahah just kidding!
I'll be fine. And i'm really looking forward to it, seeing as these past few days of holiday have been total lock down for me in my house. Violin is horrible. I'd advise you not to take it up. But then again, that's just me. :)
Not quite sure but i have a gut feeling that i will enjoy being away from internet, cell phone reception etc etc. :)
I'll miss you guys! You know who you are. C;
Steffi lah bah.
Thursday, June 04, 2009
You're Changing Your Heart
AHHAHAHAHHAHAHAH i was discussing with Jeremiah about getting a wideangle lens
here is our conversation:
Steffi says:
considering i can even find it
Jeremiah says:
how much
Steffi says:
well it says $1400 uk
so times 6
Jeremiah says:
omfg
Steffi says:
yeap
hahaha
Jeremiah says:
go sell ur arms and kidneys
Steffi says:
the pictures had better be freaking awesome
Jeremiah says:
http://www.dpreview.com/lensreviews/sigma_70-200_2p8_n15/
LOL
HSM ... high school musical focus
Steffi says:
HAHAHAHAHHA
I SAW THAT JUST NOW
WAS THINKING IT TOO
Jeremiah says:
HAHAHA
hey it looks freking good
its macro again that
looks fantastic
despite the suspicious name
Steffi says:
hahahahahahahhaha
oh, give it up
ahahah
no dust and moisture sealing but still
ahahah
Jeremiah says:
price 2.6k
great for potraits too i guess
portraits*
http://cgi.ebay.com.my/Sigma-70-200mm-f-2-8-II-f2-8-EX-DG-APO-HSM-Macro-Nikon_W0QQitemZ350124101452QQcmdZViewItemQQptZCamera_Lenses?hash=item518505cf4c&_trksid=p3286.m63.l1177
Steffi says:
hah
Jeremiah says:
This lens incorporates HSM (High School Musical), which ensures a quiet and high-speed AF as well as full-time manual focusing capability.
Steffi says:
HAHHAHAHAH
HONESTLY, MAN
HAHAHAHA
Jeremiah says:
This lens incorporates HSM (High School Musical), which ensures a Noisy and high-octane Dances as well as full-time manual focusing capability.
Steffi says:
HAHAHAHHAH
Jeremiah says:
hahaha
imagine people who you zoom into start dancing
HAHAHA
Steffi says:
HAHAHAHAHA
that's hilarious
ahhaha
Jeremiah says:
wow i want a lens that could
This lens incorporates HSM (High School Musical), which ensures a Noisy and high-octane Dances as well as full-time manual moon walking capability.
i forgot to change the last part
Steffi says:
HAHAHAHAHAH
MOON WALKING
hahahahahhaa
Jeremiah says:
HAHAHA
Steffi says:
so it really looks good?
Jeremiah says:
from an hsm point of view
minimum focusing distance of 100cm/39.4in
Steffi says:
HAHAHAHAH
Jeremiah says:
around 3.28083989501 feet
to focus on something
Steffi says:
bet you googled that
hahahaa
Jeremiah says:
closest
no i wiki
haha
jk
Steffi says:
hahaha
Jeremiah says:
i convert with a metric thingy
hahaha i love Jeremiah so so much. :P
Especially when he can make fun of HSM while being extremely busy and helping me find a lens. Truly awesome. :D
Wanna taste of Jeremiah?
Link yo. More like hyperlink. :P
Favourite quote of the day:
"Troy and Gabriella are way better in this than the last 3 movies... They moon walk here" - Jeremiah
P.S. Thanks for the much needed reason to update.
Just FYI, i've been fine. Will check back when i get the chance to breathe.
here is our conversation:
Steffi says:
considering i can even find it
Jeremiah says:
how much
Steffi says:
well it says $1400 uk
so times 6
Jeremiah says:
omfg
Steffi says:
yeap
hahaha
Jeremiah says:
go sell ur arms and kidneys
Steffi says:
the pictures had better be freaking awesome
Jeremiah says:
http://www.dpreview.com/lensreviews/sigma_70-200_2p8_n15/
LOL
HSM ... high school musical focus
Steffi says:
HAHAHAHAHHA
I SAW THAT JUST NOW
WAS THINKING IT TOO
Jeremiah says:
HAHAHA
hey it looks freking good
its macro again that
looks fantastic
despite the suspicious name
Steffi says:
hahahahahahahhaha
oh, give it up
ahahah
no dust and moisture sealing but still
ahahah
Jeremiah says:
price 2.6k
great for potraits too i guess
portraits*
http://cgi.ebay.com.my/Sigma-70-200mm-f-2-8-II-f2-8-EX-DG-APO-HSM-Macro-Nikon_W0QQitemZ350124101452QQcmdZViewItemQQptZCamera_Lenses?hash=item518505cf4c&_trksid=p3286.m63.l1177
Steffi says:
hah
Jeremiah says:
This lens incorporates HSM (High School Musical), which ensures a quiet and high-speed AF as well as full-time manual focusing capability.
Steffi says:
HAHHAHAHAH
HONESTLY, MAN
HAHAHAHA
Jeremiah says:
This lens incorporates HSM (High School Musical), which ensures a Noisy and high-octane Dances as well as full-time manual focusing capability.
Steffi says:
HAHAHAHHAH
Jeremiah says:
hahaha
imagine people who you zoom into start dancing
HAHAHA
Steffi says:
HAHAHAHAHA
that's hilarious
ahhaha
Jeremiah says:
wow i want a lens that could
This lens incorporates HSM (High School Musical), which ensures a Noisy and high-octane Dances as well as full-time manual moon walking capability.
i forgot to change the last part
Steffi says:
HAHAHAHAHAH
MOON WALKING
hahahahahhaa
Jeremiah says:
HAHAHA
Steffi says:
so it really looks good?
Jeremiah says:
from an hsm point of view
minimum focusing distance of 100cm/39.4in
Steffi says:
HAHAHAHAH
Jeremiah says:
around 3.28083989501 feet
to focus on something
Steffi says:
bet you googled that
hahahaa
Jeremiah says:
closest
no i wiki
haha
jk
Steffi says:
hahaha
Jeremiah says:
i convert with a metric thingy
hahaha i love Jeremiah so so much. :P
Especially when he can make fun of HSM while being extremely busy and helping me find a lens. Truly awesome. :D
Wanna taste of Jeremiah?
Link yo. More like hyperlink. :P
Favourite quote of the day:
"Troy and Gabriella are way better in this than the last 3 movies... They moon walk here" - Jeremiah
P.S. Thanks for the much needed reason to update.
Just FYI, i've been fine. Will check back when i get the chance to breathe.
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