I'll Stay The Same

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I Wish I Knew How To Break The Spell

i'm reading old messages in my inbox cause i'm going to do a mass delete soon. There are 3478 message here and my phone's starting to lag pretty bad. Therefore a clean up is necessary. These messages date back to when i first got this phone which was 16th May.

I'm feeling very very nostalgic. At first, i was planning on just deleting everything without giving it a second thought. But.... I couldn't resist dipping my toes into water that is my inbox.

I started out by reading the first few messages i got from friends in this phone. The short conversations that represented our time and the long foreign ones we sent back and forth in various languages. I miss that.

The next place that caught my eye was the birthday wishes. There were so many of you! Some sending long messages, poems. Others sending short but meaningful messages with our inside jokes included. Birthday messages from across the world. That was really sweet. And even though i didn't get to celebrate my birthday at all this year, considering i was having my chemistry exam the next day. It was nice. Oh wait, i did celebrate it. Sort of. Thanks to the bunch of you who showed up at my house at 11pm with ice cream cake and hugs. Good times. And thanks to fay for the 'surprise' cake. :p mom still feels bad about that.

So many messages explaining missed calls and misunderstandings. Making lists of which guys were whose. Bartering for them if the results matched. Food.Quoting favourite scenes in movies and shows. Bashing each other about emo music when the both of us listen to the same music. Full of replies to "how was your day?"s. Invitations to go cycling at 5am. Inappropriate and random questions that I still remember the replies I gave them. Photocliks that didn't happen. Conversations concerning spray paint and vandalism. Vacations that sucked. Food. Dates that bombed. Sudden goodbyes. Socks. Chuck. James too. A lot of :3s. Creating of new smileys. Late night conversations. Stupid 'confessions of love' that happened every 4 minutes. 4 way conversations with the oc gang. A surprising amount of messages concerning coupons?! Food. Arguments i don't even remember the causes of. Pots. 'Nuff said. Questions that came right out of the blue with the sole purpose of getting information. MMSes of things to amuse me. Messages from people who aren't here anymore. Conversations about robots. A big wad of messages asking me not to freak out so easily. A lot of messages about Star Wars and Ewoks. Weird events that happened, explained in full detail. Certain conversations concerning Avatar. Text-based Pokemon battles turned harry potter characters battles turned professor oak battles. Negotiations on punishments. On Tuxedo and jamie and karen making me really sad (XP). Silly little banters that make us such good friends. About charmanderzzzzxxxxzxvvxvzxz. Fights over tamagotchis. About food. A lot of capital-lettered laughs. A lot of great memories.

The senders are pretty much the same bunch throughout the year with the exceptions of some falling out completely and some new friends joining in. I wish i could say that my inbox will be filled by the same people next year. But we can't live in the past. No matter how much i want things to stay the same.

I know i'm making a big deal out of just deleting my inbox but friendships were made and broken there. Lots of memories. I know it isn't the end of the year yet but the majority of this year was in there. Yes, that's just how much jamie and karen have upset me. Hahahha. Don't think you're off the hook, derek.

Good luck, karen on yout theory exam! Have fun in kl, fefeh. Emli, i miss youuu.And we got first in music fest yesterday. :D awesommmmeeee.


Steffi.

P.s. My inbox is empty now. Want to help me fill it?

Remember When The Boys Were All Electric?

I've been bloghopping, as certain people do when they are bored. In example, you go to a close friend's blog then you proceed to click another person's blog. Then you do it again. And again. And again. Right. Anyways. I can't help but noticing people skipping school cause they feel like it.

This really makes me wonder how many people actually do this. Skipping school when you feel like it. I mean don't get me wrong, i knew it happened but we're talking about a lot of people

skipping school. Of course, they're using the H1N1 as the reason. And they spend their time

playing video games, hanging out etc. Can't help but feel a pang of jealousy.

In my school, you skip school. You apply leave. And it might not even get approved! Punyalah

syok the students from other schools. After exams, you can run around school under some weak excuse and still be fine. In the torture house that is my school, we have classes, more tests than usual, homework holiday enough to last us through the end of the year, teachers are pms-ed about our exam results and shit like that. Remind me again why i'm in this school?

Oh, that's right. Because we get hand sanitizer at the stairs, our temperature gets checked, they switch off the aircon to prevent germs spreading, made the young ones wear uniforms that are hydrophillic and untidy. Oh yeah. Don't forget the inane high standards. This is the dream.

Right about now, you're thinking

what about friends? doesn't she have friends? God, how pathetic.

Of course I have friends, weird-voice-in-my-head-that-voices-out-opinions-of-nonexistant-

people-probably. I have friends. Even the worse person in the world would have at least one

friend. Unfortunately i'm so very close to that person.

Everybody has a fay to their emily. brook to their peyton. marissa to their summer. chuck to their morgan. Hopefully you got my drift by now or i really don't understand why we're friends. But I have to admit. I have no idea who's mine. yes, you're right. I am pathetic.

So, lemme get this straight. After 17 years on this world, you have no george to your izzie?

That is correct, sir. Oh let it go. I have friends, okay? This was only to make you realise how

great my school life is.

PHOTO TIME!

why? Cause now i'm depressed. :( ahhahaha

:( don't you hate how blogger can only upload 5 pictures at a time? And how slow it is? :/ gehh

overdue pictures from february. :p

Shinko!

i love this couple. :D

candid

Might i add that the tsen/chong clan looks mighty fine. :p

caaaandid

okay. this isn't candid.

Everyone's awake.

Everyone's asleep. ;)

Actually i think i've updated this trip before. :P HAHAHHAHA whatever. Gosh i hate how slow the pictures upload. ahahhahahahahahhahahahah this site's very very very addictive.

au revoir. I should sleep dammit.

When I'm The One Who's Selling You Out

Helloooo!!! Last night was the best sleep i've had all week. Jesus, i love weekends. After Malay and Chinese, which i think i failed of course, we had music fest practice then worship practice. Mm hmm. Then tuition was cancelled. Awesome. Then i went out with a bunch of friends. Listened to music, ate mackers, argued over who'd get the tamagotchi. Basically had a great time. Apart from the exam part of the day, it was a really good day. :D

Today, I spent half the day in bed. Not sleeping but just enjoying the rain. Yes, very unproductive indeed. I could've been studying but didn't. Derek challenged me to learn the 7 page long tabs of Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton and post it as a Youtube vidjeo. He has to do the same thing too. :p Anyways. i'll do that as soon as i can but right now i should focus on my ongoing exams. Although i am playing Zork. :P

Tonight. Church. Supper. Back to church for Music Fest practice. Ohh yes. Tonight's gonna be awesome.

Tomorrow. Study sejarah and go to tuition. :/ Sounds really bad.

Nothing to look forward to except zork. :p GAHHHHHHHHHHHNOTHINBUTLOVE.

You're Not Welcome Anymore

I wish i had some interesting observation to share with you guys today, but i haven't been much of a spectator these days. I'm overlooking a lot of stuff i really shouldn't. Missing signs i should've seen. But. But. but. but i've updated my ipod. :p hahaahha that has nothing to do with being an observer.

Been torrent downloading. teehee. I love torrents. Some are painfully slow but at least i'm getting new stuff. :D Right, so i failed to mention in every form of media that i failed my grade 8 violin exam. I won't be able to retake it in March cause by then i'll be in Brisbane. Ah well. i ruined my teacher's Grade 8 100% passing rate. :p i know i shouldn't sound so happy. :/ *remorseful*

hahaha right. I owe you guys a lot of pictures still. Haha man, i suck. Today was a surprisingly good day. And i have a huge test for Sejarah tomorrow. And i haven't studied. I probably should study. Yeah. I think I should.

I'm addicted to cake. yuuummmmm. I'm addicted to a lot of things.

I've been sitting at my table for hours. Well, i finished my homework. Some other stuff that really had to be done. But still nothing from my Sejarah textbook. One of my torrents finished downloading. And i'm just typing random stuff that come to mind over the course of a few hours. Please, enjoy my train of thought. Or rather, just ignore this post.

Exams start on the 11th, Tuesday. End on the 17th, Monday. Parents'll be out of town. Party?

Aww man that sucks. :0 You shouldn't miss out just cause. You'll want to look back and remember everything. Even the sucky events. Trust me.

Oh, swooning's a hobby of mine alright. Something's wrong with twitter. :/ weeeiirrdd. oh wait. twitter works now. This post is crap. Honestly. hahahha

I really wish i could do something to help you out. :/ meowr. my hands are about to freeze off. Ooh the weather in Sandakan was bad. They took off but they had to turn back. Dad just got home. 0.0 poor daddy.

Oh dilemma dilemma. HAHAHHA can i just say that going out on a motorbike to a drive-thru for ice cream is not smart? :p hahaahahahha

Exam mood has not hit me yet. I'm in trouble. Oh, i'm in astronomical trouble. Oh god. Come on, steffi. 4 days away. PUT IT THROUGH YOUR SKULL!

eh. didn't work. Oh man i'm screwed.

so, my toes are numb. That's bad huh?

Can't help but feel like i'm abandoning you. :( It's not what i want to do.

It'll all be alright. Right?

But They're Pulling Down The Branches Of The Tree

I feel better. And less whiny.

Hooray for feeling better.

Also i love cake. <3

Yummy. :p

I've been a fat ass the past few days. All i do is eat.

Exams are up in 2 weeks.

Gasssssspppppp

Peh i don't know.

In other news, I sent out my uni application a few days ago. And i got the confirmation of acceptance of offer. I was offered to do two semesters of foundation. Yay. But it's conditional upon my spm mock exam result. So i guess i won't be able to blow off the rest of the year. Ahhhh well.

It sucks that both of you guys got picked. Guess my last two months in KK will kinda sorta suck now. I miss you guys already. :( I'm gonna miss all of you guys.

Vlog's still got problems and won't go up. GRRRRR MALAYSIAN INTERNET.

I need to shower cause Tshung Tsin Night's tonight and mom's making me go with her. Yaaaaaay. No youth. :(

^ this yaaaaaay is sarcastic. Just btw.

Hahahha Karen and Nadym just called. Saying they wanna hang out after. Let's hope i can goooo. Cause i miss Karen and Nadym. Even though the last time i saw Nad, he did try to push me off a really tall wall. Daaaammmmnn. But still, miss em both. :D

CROSS FINGERS.

Ngiaaaoooo.

Make it last. Make it last. You. Me. Together