Strung Out From Coast to Coast

do you ever wonder what its gonna be like in 3 years?
all your friends would be going off to different parts of the world.
some you'd probably never see again for as long as you live.
even if i hated your guts, i'd still want to see you.
how your life turned out. whether you've changed at all.
whether you got what you deserved
i'd still wanna know.

do you live everyday knowing that there will never be another 12th of July 2008 ever?
are you wasting your time, thinking 'oh tomorrow's another day.'
everyday is the last day.
no, i'm not saying we might die tomorrow.
touch wood.
and again, i'm not saying we won't
but that's not what i'm pointing out.
what i am saying is
are you living?
i don't know.
maybe its too much trig, chem and physics
but its all hitting me a little faster than i'd hoped.

you.
you might never speak to me again.
you might not like what i tell you but you gotta know that i tell you cause i love you and i care about you
you might not be what i'd hoped for
you might wish that i'd crawl under some rock and just die
you might want to spend more time together
you might want to spend more apart
well, what do you want?
i don't know what you expect me to say to you
every time there's that awkward silence when i feel the frisson you always give me
i don't know what you want me to do
when i'm trying my best to not hurt you
i don't know why you can't just take me seriously
when i'm practically screaming it to you, subtly
i don't want you to leave.
not literally leave
but walk out of my life, just like that
i'm not going to make it easy for you
no,
i'm not done with you yet

i know you're hurting right now
and i wish i could do more to help you through this period of time
but i can't help you if you're not willing to let me help.
Please and i repeat,
please tell me when you're ready.
i know you need a grace period and i respect that.
i'll be here waiting for you when you do need me.

now, onto less depressing and confusing things.
Andrew is leaving... again.
:(
i didn't say it wouldn't be depressing,
i just said it'd be less depressing.
*insert dry laughter here*
Daniel Koh's leaving too.... again.
Thomas is migrating to Sacramento.
Sam L. is going back to Perth soon.
Addie left on tuesday.
Paul K. is leaving soon too.
everybody's leaving.
and i'm just not ready.

ahhhh Andrew. I'm gonna miss ya, perv. =)
oh yeah. Went out with Andrew earlier on tonight.
Watched Hancock after dinner at Burger King.
Burger King is loveeeee.
Take care of yourself and don't forget to prepare for our next installment
hahaha. love you.

Confused and Doped,
Steffi.

copy and pasted from modedevie