A Thousand Faces We'll Choose To Ignore.

It's hard to think straight when there's so much going on. I can't put these unfamiliar feeling into words. Like. Gah. Thank God i'm not taking my IELTS tomorrow. I haven't been able to write or say anything properly this week. All i've been doing is feel. And i can't stop. And it's driving me crazy. Okay umm. Try to think back to something that hit you the strongest. Got it? Now, multiply that by 62^infinity squared.

ARGH. I. CAN'T. EXPLAIN. HOW. I. FEEL.

and it's pissing me off immensely.

Instead, i'm just going to random picture drop!

i miss Charlene. :)

KARAN!

WHY WON'T THIS GLASS BREAK?

MMMMMMDEWEK

:D

I miss Darren also but he couldn't meet us that day.

:(

Fine. not so random. I just miss you guyssss. :(

I had a power outage last night. :/ Couldn't finish my update.

Gah. I feel good today. :D

Eklektos tonighhttt! <3

NGIAOOOOOOOLOOVVVVEEEEMMEEEE!!!

dsteffi.

Dear Karen

aka Karan. I looovvveeee youuuuuu sooo much!!!! :D

Thanks for the invite to your party. Despite being one of the only two tshung tsin people at your party, i had fun. :) It was a little awkward at first but it got better when we finally sat down. hahhaha I knowww you had a lot of fun! :D You looked gorgeous! AHHAHA you know where my favourite part was. xP

Ohhh i'm so sorry i didn't give you a speech like David and Joshua did. But you know how i get in front of a crowd. heh. I'm sorry. You wouldn't have wanted me to puke over the dance floor. ahhaha i nearly did before me and alex went on stage. Dry heaving ftw!

I didn't take many pictures cause i was distracted to say the least. I'm happy Nadym and Chloe were there to call me superloser. hahahahhah I'm really sorry about Wendy who lost her phone. It really sucks but stay strong, girl. :) You're lucky to have a calm man by your side. ;)

Ohhh karen. i'm so sorry i didn't dance. :D Didn't really feel up to it. hahaa i'll dance with you next time when i get my license. ;) you know what i mean, giiiiirrrrllll. hahahhaha

Once again, love youuu dearly. And i know you won't be feeling alone next year cause from what i've witnessed last night, you have lots of friends who won't let that happen. :) I'll see you the year after the next. :D

<3

I Swore I Saw You Smile

I've been so quiet these days. It's like i have nothing to say anymore. Surprised? Believe me, you're not the only one. :X Blogging's become harder but i keep getting updates from friends. Peer pressurized into updating without anything solid to update on. Which usually brings about a boring post. So i don't know why i'm even submitting this post.

Nyah. Since i've started, i might as well finish.

mm. In form form maybe? :I Bear with meee pweassee. :3

I am pretty sure i should be sleeping.
I have been hanging out with Alex all day.
I am happy that we have one day short of a week of holidays.
I want nothing more than to have you.
I will need to wake up at 6 to bring my brother to school for the entrance exam. *fingers crossed*
I think i need to figure out what i'm going to wear tomorrow. :O

Theme of my week: People need to stop saying goodbye then coming back again. :/

Yeah. I suppose that's it? MmmmMMmmmmMmmmmm....

OH OH I KNOW! ahhahaha I hate it when you make a video, take all day/night editing it. And then Youtube's a bitch. :/ Gahh Then your contents expire and you need to make another video not forgetting that the things you might mention have cross references to old videos that you've made and have not successfully upload. Gosh it pisses me off. hahahaha

Do you ever want something so bad that it makes you want to scream everytime you think about it cause you know you're never going to get it? GAAHHHHALJKESHDFOAISHEOFBALKSEJN;ALKSJHNLFKJASNLEKFDJHALSJKEHRLFKAJHESLDKFJBA,JEBFL,KAJSBEFKAGGGGGGG

Hi people. I have cooled down. I'm not tired. I have not worn it for a day and already i miss it. Although it's just in my drawer. I need to start going through withdrawal. :( So far so good?

Ngiaoooo i'm excited! :D for tomorrow night though. So excited and nervous in a you kinda want to puke but you only find yourself dry heaving into the toilet bowl kinda way. :D GAH it's the good kind. I hope. NYAH.

HAIIII PAPER TOWELS! HOW ARE YOU GUYS? :D i actually kinda miss you guys and this place is gilllaaaaaaaa senyap mannn. gahhh.

I'm feeling whiny and i'm sure you feel it too. Sorry.

bahhhh i need to be productive.

I came this close to writing a song today. THIS CLOSE. but then i malas. :/ so it just flew away.

& yes i realise that there is no way you can tell how close but shut up cause papayas are orange and so are oranges but which one is orangier? Huh? HUH, PUNK?! Betcha never thought about that one. Yeahhh you sit down and think about that, kid.

hi, hidden message readers! :D

Night. Lub steffi.

All The World Can Watch

I have a feeling this is going to be one of those posts again. Avert your eyes, people.

Sometimes before i post a very personal train of thought onto my blog, i hesitate. These trains of thought may range between a honest-to-goodness random thought or something i think of when i'm jiwang or emo or whatever. Or how i feel. Basically my rants and vents.

The reason i do this is because everytime i do and i mean everytime, I'll get someone come up to me when i'm sitting in class (this doesn't happen very often seeing as i'm a little different in school/class. Maybe outside too. But that's beside the point) and they attempt to psychoanalyse me.

Okay, a little background.

Majority of you who are here, i probably know you through church or you study in other schools or both. DUH. Anyways, i'm a little quieter in school. Awkward. I don't have a lot of friends. And that's just me. Who i chose to be.

Anyways, they'll throw all these questions around and try to tell me what i really am feeling. For example, when i'm feeling confused, they'll tell me it's just because i'm feeling antsy etc. Maybe you're just trying to get to know me better or that's just how you show me that you care. Or that you're concerned about me. Or maybe you just wanna "relate" to me. I don't know. Nor do i honestly care.

I know how i feel. I'm the only one who knows what i'm feeling when i'm feeling it. And i'd really appreciate it if you'd stop pitying me, thinking oh, poor girl. Got into a fight with her best friend again. or getting so emotionally upset over nothing again. Just. Stop acting like you know me so well or that i'm so predictable. I don't need that. I don't need anything from you. I've never asked for anything from you. Maybe now you're just confused as to whether or not i've ever asked anything from you or not. Believe me. If I've ever wanted anything from you, you'd know and i'd have it.

Maybe in your head you've built up this idea of me being happy all the time. Who's happy all the time, man? At some point in your life, you will cease to be happy. And that's normal. If you never knew about this side of me, that's good. I really wish i could always be happy for you, but i don't know that that's possible.

I'll be okay. Is that what you want me to say?

Tell Me I'm Wrong

The truth is i have nothing to say. I'm hoping the words'll come as i write.

Well, I went to Page One on Friday. Alex was pretty awesome but he wasn't the only one. I'll post up a video of the song you want to hear soon la kay, lex? :) Remember, the jam on Wednesday and also i'm sorry i couldn't meet up with you today. Something came up but i hope it was nice and i do hope you get used to it! :D And how was it?

Page One was awesome. Waiting for the next installment. I wanna soak up as much of the music scene KK has to offer before you know what. The only thing that sucked was that we had school the next day. I got home pretty late and needless to say, slept pretty late. Got up really early the next morning and stumbled to school to listen in class and take tests. :/

I recall complaining many times this weekend about how suckish it is that we have school on Saturdays and that we only get one day off the whole week. We have the rest of Saturday, but by the time you leave school grounds you're tired. And Sunday's family day and stuff like that. And i mean i love family day and i don't want to get rid of it but i wish i had time to spend with my friends too. If only there were one more day in a week, maybe it should be called Chuckday! ahhahahhaha God, i'd love to have a Chuckday. :D

Daryl came home today, so welcome home! We're meeting up tomorrow with the rest of the OC gang. I feel very cold. I think i might be getting sick. I hate being sick. I need to exercise. We went antiquing today. And i mean a lot of antiquing with my aunties and uncles. We bargained the crap out of chinamen. ahahah David Koh's back too apparently. Just got a message. :O

My good mood is gone. I think i was riding on a high the whole week. But that's okay cause it lasted a lot longer than it should have. So that's enough. I'm having a tough time. :( And i should get some sleep. Imma go to bed after i update my pod again. mm i should.

Night night.

Wait. They don't love you like i love you.

We'll All Float On Okay

Hey guys. What up.

Time's running out for me to decide what i'll be doing for the rest of my life. Do you remember when you're in Junior form and you have this huge decision to make that would cause a chain reaction in your life? The decision between Science Stream and Commerce/Arts. Me being the confused idiot that i was, picked Science stream just because it'd give me leverage when i'd actually decided what i'd want to do.

Two years later, where am i? Exactly where i was two years ago. I think i mentioned in a previous post that i was going to do mass communication. Maybe it was twitter. I don't remember. The point is that i'm back to where i started. Now, i don't want to do mass communication. Ugh. Oh messy messy.

My education consultant says i'm overthinking things and that i should just do my foundation and keep my science subjects, just on the off chance that i might choose something science related. This is exactly what i'm doing now. I can't stand this unsureness. All these talks about my future with family/friends. What the frack am i supposed to do in life?

Oh. I might as well move to Japan and live with Irwin. I'll just teach English. :/ Oh, i'm so frustrated. But surprisingly, i've been in an unbelievably good mood since school started. Well, even before that but usually Kunya and I are so grouchy in school. Somehow the both of us are in really happy moods. We're just waiting for it to wear off cause we both know they're not going to last. I have nothing to be happy about. Honest.

I'm in between places right now. My mood's all over the place. And no, it's not what you're thinking. There is just so much going on. Things i need to get done etc. I'm overthinking everything. :( Ohh pessimism.

We're just so opposite. What are the chances right? :O Oh, and i swear facebook hates me. Seriously. & I have a big test tomorrow. :(

On the plus side though, Daryl's coming home this sunday and Daniel too! Joy!

I'll picture update next time. But don't hold your breath.

I'll Stay The Same

eeeee tiba tiba malas blog. sorry

I Wish I Knew How To Break The Spell

i'm reading old messages in my inbox cause i'm going to do a mass delete soon. There are 3478 message here and my phone's starting to lag pretty bad. Therefore a clean up is necessary. These messages date back to when i first got this phone which was 16th May.

I'm feeling very very nostalgic. At first, i was planning on just deleting everything without giving it a second thought. But.... I couldn't resist dipping my toes into water that is my inbox.

I started out by reading the first few messages i got from friends in this phone. The short conversations that represented our time and the long foreign ones we sent back and forth in various languages. I miss that.

The next place that caught my eye was the birthday wishes. There were so many of you! Some sending long messages, poems. Others sending short but meaningful messages with our inside jokes included. Birthday messages from across the world. That was really sweet. And even though i didn't get to celebrate my birthday at all this year, considering i was having my chemistry exam the next day. It was nice. Oh wait, i did celebrate it. Sort of. Thanks to the bunch of you who showed up at my house at 11pm with ice cream cake and hugs. Good times. And thanks to fay for the 'surprise' cake. :p mom still feels bad about that.

So many messages explaining missed calls and misunderstandings. Making lists of which guys were whose. Bartering for them if the results matched. Food.Quoting favourite scenes in movies and shows. Bashing each other about emo music when the both of us listen to the same music. Full of replies to "how was your day?"s. Invitations to go cycling at 5am. Inappropriate and random questions that I still remember the replies I gave them. Photocliks that didn't happen. Conversations concerning spray paint and vandalism. Vacations that sucked. Food. Dates that bombed. Sudden goodbyes. Socks. Chuck. James too. A lot of :3s. Creating of new smileys. Late night conversations. Stupid 'confessions of love' that happened every 4 minutes. 4 way conversations with the oc gang. A surprising amount of messages concerning coupons?! Food. Arguments i don't even remember the causes of. Pots. 'Nuff said. Questions that came right out of the blue with the sole purpose of getting information. MMSes of things to amuse me. Messages from people who aren't here anymore. Conversations about robots. A big wad of messages asking me not to freak out so easily. A lot of messages about Star Wars and Ewoks. Weird events that happened, explained in full detail. Certain conversations concerning Avatar. Text-based Pokemon battles turned harry potter characters battles turned professor oak battles. Negotiations on punishments. On Tuxedo and jamie and karen making me really sad (XP). Silly little banters that make us such good friends. About charmanderzzzzxxxxzxvvxvzxz. Fights over tamagotchis. About food. A lot of capital-lettered laughs. A lot of great memories.

The senders are pretty much the same bunch throughout the year with the exceptions of some falling out completely and some new friends joining in. I wish i could say that my inbox will be filled by the same people next year. But we can't live in the past. No matter how much i want things to stay the same.

I know i'm making a big deal out of just deleting my inbox but friendships were made and broken there. Lots of memories. I know it isn't the end of the year yet but the majority of this year was in there. Yes, that's just how much jamie and karen have upset me. Hahahha. Don't think you're off the hook, derek.

Good luck, karen on yout theory exam! Have fun in kl, fefeh. Emli, i miss youuu.And we got first in music fest yesterday. :D awesommmmeeee.


Steffi.

P.s. My inbox is empty now. Want to help me fill it?

Remember When The Boys Were All Electric?

I've been bloghopping, as certain people do when they are bored. In example, you go to a close friend's blog then you proceed to click another person's blog. Then you do it again. And again. And again. Right. Anyways. I can't help but noticing people skipping school cause they feel like it.

This really makes me wonder how many people actually do this. Skipping school when you feel like it. I mean don't get me wrong, i knew it happened but we're talking about a lot of people

skipping school. Of course, they're using the H1N1 as the reason. And they spend their time

playing video games, hanging out etc. Can't help but feel a pang of jealousy.

In my school, you skip school. You apply leave. And it might not even get approved! Punyalah

syok the students from other schools. After exams, you can run around school under some weak excuse and still be fine. In the torture house that is my school, we have classes, more tests than usual, homework holiday enough to last us through the end of the year, teachers are pms-ed about our exam results and shit like that. Remind me again why i'm in this school?

Oh, that's right. Because we get hand sanitizer at the stairs, our temperature gets checked, they switch off the aircon to prevent germs spreading, made the young ones wear uniforms that are hydrophillic and untidy. Oh yeah. Don't forget the inane high standards. This is the dream.

Right about now, you're thinking

what about friends? doesn't she have friends? God, how pathetic.

Of course I have friends, weird-voice-in-my-head-that-voices-out-opinions-of-nonexistant-

people-probably. I have friends. Even the worse person in the world would have at least one

friend. Unfortunately i'm so very close to that person.

Everybody has a fay to their emily. brook to their peyton. marissa to their summer. chuck to their morgan. Hopefully you got my drift by now or i really don't understand why we're friends. But I have to admit. I have no idea who's mine. yes, you're right. I am pathetic.

So, lemme get this straight. After 17 years on this world, you have no george to your izzie?

That is correct, sir. Oh let it go. I have friends, okay? This was only to make you realise how

great my school life is.

PHOTO TIME!

why? Cause now i'm depressed. :( ahhahaha

:( don't you hate how blogger can only upload 5 pictures at a time? And how slow it is? :/ gehh

overdue pictures from february. :p

Shinko!

i love this couple. :D

candid

Might i add that the tsen/chong clan looks mighty fine. :p

caaaandid

okay. this isn't candid.

Everyone's awake.

Everyone's asleep. ;)

Actually i think i've updated this trip before. :P HAHAHHAHA whatever. Gosh i hate how slow the pictures upload. ahahhahahahahahhahahahah this site's very very very addictive.

au revoir. I should sleep dammit.

When I'm The One Who's Selling You Out

Helloooo!!! Last night was the best sleep i've had all week. Jesus, i love weekends. After Malay and Chinese, which i think i failed of course, we had music fest practice then worship practice. Mm hmm. Then tuition was cancelled. Awesome. Then i went out with a bunch of friends. Listened to music, ate mackers, argued over who'd get the tamagotchi. Basically had a great time. Apart from the exam part of the day, it was a really good day. :D

Today, I spent half the day in bed. Not sleeping but just enjoying the rain. Yes, very unproductive indeed. I could've been studying but didn't. Derek challenged me to learn the 7 page long tabs of Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton and post it as a Youtube vidjeo. He has to do the same thing too. :p Anyways. i'll do that as soon as i can but right now i should focus on my ongoing exams. Although i am playing Zork. :P

Tonight. Church. Supper. Back to church for Music Fest practice. Ohh yes. Tonight's gonna be awesome.

Tomorrow. Study sejarah and go to tuition. :/ Sounds really bad.

Nothing to look forward to except zork. :p GAHHHHHHHHHHHNOTHINBUTLOVE.

You're Not Welcome Anymore

I wish i had some interesting observation to share with you guys today, but i haven't been much of a spectator these days. I'm overlooking a lot of stuff i really shouldn't. Missing signs i should've seen. But. But. but. but i've updated my ipod. :p hahaahha that has nothing to do with being an observer.

Been torrent downloading. teehee. I love torrents. Some are painfully slow but at least i'm getting new stuff. :D Right, so i failed to mention in every form of media that i failed my grade 8 violin exam. I won't be able to retake it in March cause by then i'll be in Brisbane. Ah well. i ruined my teacher's Grade 8 100% passing rate. :p i know i shouldn't sound so happy. :/ *remorseful*

hahaha right. I owe you guys a lot of pictures still. Haha man, i suck. Today was a surprisingly good day. And i have a huge test for Sejarah tomorrow. And i haven't studied. I probably should study. Yeah. I think I should.

I'm addicted to cake. yuuummmmm. I'm addicted to a lot of things.

I've been sitting at my table for hours. Well, i finished my homework. Some other stuff that really had to be done. But still nothing from my Sejarah textbook. One of my torrents finished downloading. And i'm just typing random stuff that come to mind over the course of a few hours. Please, enjoy my train of thought. Or rather, just ignore this post.

Exams start on the 11th, Tuesday. End on the 17th, Monday. Parents'll be out of town. Party?

Aww man that sucks. :0 You shouldn't miss out just cause. You'll want to look back and remember everything. Even the sucky events. Trust me.

Oh, swooning's a hobby of mine alright. Something's wrong with twitter. :/ weeeiirrdd. oh wait. twitter works now. This post is crap. Honestly. hahahha

I really wish i could do something to help you out. :/ meowr. my hands are about to freeze off. Ooh the weather in Sandakan was bad. They took off but they had to turn back. Dad just got home. 0.0 poor daddy.

Oh dilemma dilemma. HAHAHHA can i just say that going out on a motorbike to a drive-thru for ice cream is not smart? :p hahaahahahha

Exam mood has not hit me yet. I'm in trouble. Oh, i'm in astronomical trouble. Oh god. Come on, steffi. 4 days away. PUT IT THROUGH YOUR SKULL!

eh. didn't work. Oh man i'm screwed.

so, my toes are numb. That's bad huh?

Can't help but feel like i'm abandoning you. :( It's not what i want to do.

It'll all be alright. Right?

But They're Pulling Down The Branches Of The Tree

I feel better. And less whiny.

Hooray for feeling better.

Also i love cake. <3

Yummy. :p

I've been a fat ass the past few days. All i do is eat.

Exams are up in 2 weeks.

Gasssssspppppp

Peh i don't know.

In other news, I sent out my uni application a few days ago. And i got the confirmation of acceptance of offer. I was offered to do two semesters of foundation. Yay. But it's conditional upon my spm mock exam result. So i guess i won't be able to blow off the rest of the year. Ahhhh well.

It sucks that both of you guys got picked. Guess my last two months in KK will kinda sorta suck now. I miss you guys already. :( I'm gonna miss all of you guys.

Vlog's still got problems and won't go up. GRRRRR MALAYSIAN INTERNET.

I need to shower cause Tshung Tsin Night's tonight and mom's making me go with her. Yaaaaaay. No youth. :(

^ this yaaaaaay is sarcastic. Just btw.

Hahahha Karen and Nadym just called. Saying they wanna hang out after. Let's hope i can goooo. Cause i miss Karen and Nadym. Even though the last time i saw Nad, he did try to push me off a really tall wall. Daaaammmmnn. But still, miss em both. :D

CROSS FINGERS.

Ngiaaaoooo.

Make it last. Make it last. You. Me. Together

Like You Never Lost A War

Sometimes i forget this is here. SORRY. I've been busy. Also, this just in, i say "I've been busy" a lot. But whenever i try to think back and find out what i've been so busy with. It's always blank. I think I'm more tired than i am busy. Don't get me wrong, I am busy. It's just, by the end of the day, it's likely i'm so tired from the all the accumilating events that i can't really remember what i did that day. Oh yeah. That and i have very bad memory. And i mean really bad memory. So. That's the end of that psychoanalysis. That excuse is getting old.

I have a better one though. I've been sick. A lot of people have been sick. It's just flu season. Which is a bad thing! You guys should eat your vitamin C and multivitamin and cod liver oil. Stay healthy and try your best to avoid this annoying period of time. There was a point when i had to stay at home to rest. I know how that sounds.

Gosh, steffi's so lucky. She doesn't have to go to school and study and be tortured.

Well, you know what? Do you know how much it sucks to be at home and want to sleep but can't? Sometimes people are just stupid. Daddy dislikes me using that word. Therefore i shall replace it with silly.

So, I'm eating apples, checking my mail and listening to an album i just downloaded. (yes i am a pirate) Arr Matey! I have an EST presentation on something to do with technology tomorrow and i haven't made my powerpoint yet. Wondering how i'm going to pull it off. Hmm. I haven't even decided on a topic yet. I should probably work on my powerpoint presentation now ey?

You Thought It'd Be So Easy To Fool Me

Hahahahahha i have a huge biology test tomorrow. But i haven't studied.

God i'm irresponsible.

oh that and i'm dying. :)

I'm Tired Of Trying To Be Sensible

When did i let myself become this spineless girl that i loathe. Gosh. I disgust myself. Thanks to you, one day she just decided it was alright for her to come out. Was too blinded to stop her back then. Now that my vision's cleared. All i can say is buh-bye.

Well, i'm back. Try not to hate me for it.

Cry For All The Things You'll Never Be

Bundaberg!!!

I want it so bad. I can't find it anywhere anymore. Grrrggullluhhh!!

Here is where i put aside my Ewok cries and apologize once again. It seems that i have been doing that a lot lately. The reason i am apologizing to my blog is because i've been updating through my phone. And through this phone, the blogger browser does not have upload picture or font or hyperlink or anything else for that matter. All that's here under the title, is spell check and preview. Which is... Useful. Yes. So, a picture update shall be the lovechild whenever i can get my hands on a computer that has internet access and has not blocked blogsites etc and when i am not gaming. :P hahaha

I have not been a happy camper. Not that i'm a camper. I'm speaking in both in-the-wilderness and in-cs-slash-cod-slash-any-war-games-really kinda sense. I can't explain it. Anywho i have two extremely difficult tests and a couple of essays due tomorrow, so i'm just going to crawl in bed [CHECK] and just sleep well thanks to the drugs. Not. Psych. Chyeah cause i'm just the poster child for heroin and erectile dysfunction.

Sorry. It's just been a really long week and i find myself daydreaming about falling. Chyeah cause everybody loves to fall.

Bye bye my sweet bloggers/bloghoppers.
Hope you're all well.
This sounds so formal.

Steffiiii.

Unhealthy Obsession

It's nice having Charlene back in town. Series marathons to have, late night cyber cafe, midnight mcdonalds runs, inside jokes, Tommy and Charlie practically living at our house. It's been fun. Wonder what it's going to be like next year. Nahhh... I think I'll leave that for next year. No point setting expectations that might not have been reached. In case you don't know me, that's the kind of person i am. I don't aim. I never aim. Well, you know, for basketball or whatever that's different. Hahah but i'm talking about goals. Things that most people aim for. For example, exam results. I have never aimed for UPSR, PMR, UEC. And i'm pretty sure i won't aim for SPM. I know that it's stupid that i'm not exercising my full potential and all that road-to-self-improvement crap. But that's just who i am. Who i've been for my whole life, really--- fine... until this point in my life, at least.

This really isn't a very bad tactic. Just think about it! No expectations = no disappointments. Hmmm maybe i'm being a coward. Eh, don't know. I know it's over but i've been feeling so tired. It's hard for me to catch up with my schedule. Strange. But then again, maybe it's cause i spend my nights updating my blog even though virtually no one reads it. :p

I owe you guys a huge update. :p Everything's been piling up. I need to get started before i'm buried alive.

Night, peeps.

IOU, steffi.

You Don't Know Me Like You Should

It still piques me how words can fail to evince one's adour, or lack thereof, rather. Isn't human nature ironic? All it took was one brief reverie to send me into the long overdue downward spiral into that hole that derek dug himself into. Now that he's out, it's vacant, which conveniently is what i've been these days. It's just the sheer absurdity of the timing and my inane choice. Sometimes i feel that i irk myself more than anybody else can. I can't submit to this plight.

Right. I forgot to tell you. It's over. ):)

But I'm Stronger Than You Know

zomggggggggggg! Exam today.
At 4. At imperial hotel.
Ohmygosh i'm scared. Oh my kalua. Aahhh.
It didn't hit me until i typed it out.
Great job, stef. Nice, scaring yourself.

Ah shit. Ohmygosh it's today.

You Must Live For Me Too

i was thinking, on my way back from violin class, that i was going to have to post a happy post.

:/ i'm sorry, this isn't going to be a happy post. :(

:( i'm not going to repeat how frickin annoyed i am. Or how tired. Cause i'm starting to hate myself, what say you huh? What chance do you guys have?

Anyways, i hope tomorrow'll look up. I don't want to die. Wait. Do i? Nahhhh i'm not suicidal. :/


i don't think that you know what you've been missing


AHHHHHHH6HHHHHH FUGGIN ANIMAL FARM. :(