While The Rest Of Them Peter Out

I have absolutely no idea what is going on with my internet. It keeps disconnecting. :(

ANYWAYS. i have been promising a lot of things and not keeping them.
But here are the picture from Thailand.
Considering they upload fast enough. :/
Oh gosh. They're not fast at all. :(
Resize!
Okay. Done resizing.
Begin the uploading process!
(:

Oh, United Colors of Benetton. You made such an impression. I wonder if i'll ever see you again.
Hmmmm. :) i sure hope so.

HAH
picture time, blase people.



I love travelling with cousins. :D

Jordan

Sheldon being lame. :)
Sheldon (something along the lines of): "Are you ready to rock?" or something like that.
Then he clicks the flash buttons on both the cameras. So they pop up.
So its like he's cocking guns. but they're not...
cause they're cameras. and this stopped being funny a while back.

Charlene. Totally candid. :D

Morgan. i don't know what he was doing.

Douggie. being douggie.

Basically we ate a lot of hot fuuuuud. and nowz i has big big ulcerz.

These are like their taxis. It seats about 8-9 people in each.

Streets of Thailand.

The weather there is really hot. Hotter than here. Imagine that.

They rent out motorcycles! To anybody! Well, anybody who has money to pay.
Durh. i didn't get to ride cause there were about 16 of us. and not all of us knew how to ride.
Or that would've been awesome! :DD:D:D:D::D:D:D:D:D *continues to dream*

During the Tuk Tuk ride.

O yeah. These things are called Tuk Tuks

pikchaaahhhhhsss

pihak polis

My mom's so cute with her \/

sunset?

Room full of relatives + dad with camera = chaos

Johnnie Walked. HAHAHAH Thai had a lot of cheap shirts.

Thailand was beautiful. If you forget about the heat. I don't think anybody ever slept.

We were waiting for the very late parents.

Irwin let me use his Nikon! :D:D::D:D:D:D THE LENS WAS HUGE! AWESOME!

Irwin. @ www.irwinwong.com
yeap. He's just that awesome.

She looks annoyed.

9mm :D

Family dinner. This is just one table. :P

Irwin and Asuka.
I think that's how you spell her name.
SORRY! :D

Jamie and Shannon at the shooting range.

That was a 9mm Glock. If i'm not mistaken.
I fired some other guns but no pictures of them.

That is aaaaaaaaa.... umm.... .22 machine gun

that's the 9mm glock again. :D:D:DD:DD:D:

Shotgun rounds. :D:D:D

.38 revolvers.

Wedding day!

Gathering in the lobby

We all took some family photos.

Wedding site. It was absolutely beautiful!
Right beside the sea.

Jamie was working. So she insisted on wearing 'work clothes'

Kevin being anxious.

Isn't that scenic? gosh.

people getting ready.

Jasmine, Jason's wife. :D

Aunty Casey and mom

Awwwwww :D

It was a perfect day

Morgan

Noel

Charlene

Jordan. and Charlene. :/

Douglas had a go carting accident. 6 stitches

Wesley

Sheldon

Photoshoot on the beach!

Sheldon asking me whether i wanted to go to the toilet. hahahahah

Ana. :D cute dog on the beach.

Funny posers.

Siblings of the bride and groom

Lighting of paper lanterns

Its supposed to bring good luck.

We went to Koh Kai Island the next day.

I didn't really get any pictures after we got off the boat but it was awesome

We played with sea cucumbers and got bitten by fish and got tans.

A clearer picture of a Tuk Tuk

There are many massage places in Phuket.

All of them fell asleep.

hahaha it was just that good.

I know this photo update kinda sucks.
But. you knowwwww.
I'm a boring person.

:D
Whatever.
Oh Valentine's Day.
What a stupid day.


Boycott Valentine's Day with me,
Steffi.

I'm Perfectly Incapable of Being With You

Hey guys. I've been boring.

Aww, come on.

You can admit it.

Cause quite frankly, i think so too.

And i'm so sorry.

For all the sad/confusing/vague posts.

They didn't use to come so often.

But now, they seem to be the only thing that's coming in.

No more pictures, videos(at least not here), audio updates.

Damn it, am i boring.

Apologies, my dearests.

Unfortunately, I cannot begin right at this moment

Cause for some reason the uploading of pictures have become insanely long.

The estimated time has been 13 days, 8 hours and 19 minutes for awhile now.

Its insane.

On a completely different note, I think Chrome absolutely sucks. Anybody with me there?

Ugh. Mozilla ftw, baby!

I'm scrolling through old posts.

It's so enjoyable.

And i miss being happy and carefree.

Seemingly carefree.

Now I'm alone most of the time and bitter for no reason.

Gawd, Steffi. What the heck is wrong with you??!?!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

OHMYGOSH, ANDREW LYN!

WE'RE SUPPOSED TO DO OUR NEXT INSTALLMENT!

but we're both so busy. :/

ARGH.

Looks like there's only one thing we can do.

Schedule time to do it. ahahaha

Contact me when you see this.

Oh man.

I miss doing Shannon time.

hahahahahhahhaha.

I'm in the same class with him this year again.

But its different now.

He changed.

Or maybe i was the one who changed.

ARGH confusion.

EEEPPPPP!!!

I MISS KAREN SO MUCH.

:(

hahahaha

i miss posting pictures of my big fat face on my blog to scare you guys.

:D ahhaaha I gotta start doing that again.

I haven't doodled on anybody's hand in forever. :/

Beware, victim.

I miss taking pictures in school.

But it's not the same anymore.

Cause we're all separated.

Guess i'll have to make do?

*weak smile*

I MISS BK ON CATURDAYS!!!

CATURDAYS! :(

hahahahah darn it.

i need my weekly dose of BK.

I miss fairy.

:(

what happened to us?

we used to be inseparable.

and now we're keeping things from each other?

Doesn't feel right.

i miss doing picture updates.

HAHA.

oh look.

Valentine's Day is just around the corner.

Let's await and see what i think of it this year.

Boycott again? As the previous two years?

Or will some things be different this year?

Only time will tell. And me too, of course.

:D

I miss watching movies. :(

I haven't seen any lately.

ahahahha

*hint hint*

AHH

AND I MISS DOING THE HINT HINT THING

:D

chh.

And the chh thing. :D

I miss vandalizing ex schools with ex best friends.

I miss taking blurry pictures with friends.

Oh gosh.

By the fates of my shuffle feature,

I realize i've missed incubus.

:D

I miss punishing myself by making myself write many times.

HAHAHA

this post is turning emo again.

hahahahaahah

APOLOGIES.

but i gotta pretend i was asleep the whole time.

:(

I'll get one up soon!

Darn those pictures.

Still not done.

Things'll be different.

I promise,

Steffi.

I Know They're Bad For Me But I Just Can't Leave Them Alone

Oh gosh.
I've missed you so much!
:)
Feels good to talk again.
But i still hate you.
Cause you always opt out before i get to listen.
You're so evil.
I'm watching you.
*eagle eye*

Whoo!
I'm batgirl.



piu piu piu.



Nah! Mati ko.

I Think You Used Me Again

You've gotta be shitting me.

Why is it that everytime i trust somebody.

They know exactly how to freakin screw me over.

I've had enough of your BS and your torture.

Your nonexistant PMS issues and your fake smiles.

Your slicing words. Your unbearable attitude.

The countless times you said 'You can trust me.'

The things you said to put me down in your despicable hopes to keep me there.

Screw you.

Damn it.

You know what sucks?

Just a little while ago, I remember telling you how much i love you and how you were one of my best friends.

How you were one of the few i trust.

Funny thing, I don't think i can recall even once that you returned it.

Guess i'm just too gullible.

Too easy to fool and use.

I'm tired of crying over shitholes like you.

Cause i realised if it doesn't physically hurt. What's the point of crying?

They're just emotions stirred up by bitches and assholes like you.

But honestly, thank you.

Thanks for reminding me once again that in this world not everything goes the way we hoped/planned.

And not everyone turns out the way we'd like to believe.

So fuck trust.

Fuck giving people the benefit of the doubt.

Seriously, i'm so sick of people pretending to be people they're not.

Putting up a smile then moving their trap as soon as my back's turned.

You know what?

I've been nothing but nice to you.

All of you.

Honestly, just try and justify what you did.

I'm so sick of listening to you feed me your underprepared lies.

So please just stop.

And as for those who are planning to hurt me and send me into another one of those emotional breakdowns i have in the shower.

Save it.

You're never getting the satisfaction of it ever again.

No matter how unaware of it you are.

I don't have to take any of your shit.

But i do cause i love you and nobody else will.

But you don't have to worry about that anymore.

Cheers, bitches.

Where are you when i need you now?

Excuse Me. Too Busy. You're Writing Your Tragedy.

8th Jan.

Hey guys.

I'm writing this in Notepad.

Its Thursday and so far the week has been going really slowly.

I don't get it.

Any-waayyss!!!

I can't wait for this week to end.

Not only cause it would mean that this school year is one week down.

But also cause i have a few friends' birthdays this weekend!

I'm ecstatic! And i can't wait to see my friends this weekend!!

I'll update soon!

10th Jan.

The first week of school is officially over.

And soon begins the second of the year.

This week has been passing insanely slowly.

I can't put my finger on it.

Its been insanely quiet in class.

We're waiting for our next teacher to come into our classroom.

And everybody is doing homework.

Yeah!! Everybody!

Including me.

But that's only cause i promised in my new year's resolutions.

Even though I don't think all of you guys watched that video.

And get this.

The said homework isn't due until March.

hahaha its so funny.

In a not so funny kind of way.

No comment on friends.

No comment on teachers.

With the exception of us scaring off our biology teacher after only two periods!

She resigned!

And we were nice to her.

And we were quiet.

But she spoke soooo softly.

I don't know.

Its just weird.

So now, we don't have a biology teacher.

Awesome.

:/

This year is really turning out to be a gem.

So, I went to Sam Tan's birthday party yesterday night at Luna Rossa.

Food was awesome.

Ambience was great.

People were acceptable. hahaha (don't take it personally, Sam. You know why.)

I hung out with Vern, Yvonne, Apple and Oscccarrrr.

Then after the party, Yazid came to pick me up

Then we chilled at Starbucks.

Then i had school this morning.

Then i went home.

And then i did some stuff.

And now here i am in Starbucks.

(Darn that Yaz.

He totally influenced me.)

But for some reason the internet isn't working.

But i don't really care.

Surprisingly.

Cause internet has been banned in my house.

Yay. :/

See? The internet isn't working.

Starbucks down a level!

hahahahaah.

Dude, I'm beating you 63-zip.

HAHAHA

And don't give me that "You're mean" crap.

Cause I am nice! and sweet! and kiiiuuttt!

HAH! you'll never beat me. hhahaha

And now i dare you to do a cover for Ex-creations by Fall of Troy!

Sometime before you leave, please. :D

Alright, pilots.

I'll see you tonight!

Salut!

15th Jan.

Hey all!

The second week of school is coming to a close.

And the truth is i don't think i can stand being in this school for another week.

Let alone another 11 months.

Joy!

I went to the ABRSM high scorers concert last night at Le Meridien.

To watch. I go every year.

And somehow i got tricked by mom to finish off my grade 8 violin.

:/ great.

Oh joy!

Oh! and Yazid left to Perth today.

Well, actually yesterday.

But. What? nothing. I don't know what i'm saying.

mm...... Let's see

Our first official prayer meeting was today.

Its so weird how fast time had flown by!

I can still remember when me, Ronald and Max were praying with VunHau.

And we were the ones being led.

Look at us now!

We're the Seniors!

The leaders.

We all have our not-so-little group of tiny juniors.

We're all pretty freaked out about it.

But i'm sure we'll do great.

With God, what can we not do?

But yeah, we feel old.

hahahaahaa. :/

I wonder how i'll feel when i'm 50.

I wonder who i'll be when i'm 50.

Hmm... great.

Something else i can think about.

AHHHHH!

You know what i found out?

Apparently i'm not going to be around for my last sports meet ever.

I'm going to be in Thailand for my wedding.

Yeah, i'm marrying my long term male prostitute.

I got him pregnant. :/

so now i have to marry him.

Great.

Talk about being chained down.

I'm joking!

Its my cousin's wedding.

And while i'm psyched that i'm going to his wedding,

I'm still bummed that i won't be able to even see my last sports day.

Ugh.

Dad gave me a choice.

But. I don't know.

Help me decide?

And this is my first post for 2009.

Wow.

Am i late.

Apologies.

And while i write this,

I'm listening to the songs that i need to play tmr.

:/ AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am not ready at all!!!!

There are songs that need self-tabbing and transposing and getting used to.

Sorry Daniel!!!

But I'm

Freaking out.

And apart from that, my first violin lesson in about a year is tomorrow too!

Joy joy joy.

And i think if i use joy one more time, i'm going to snap.

And i know some of you guys have been worried about me.

Even though i have no idea what you guys are worrying about.

I'm fine, you know?

Really.

Just been really tired and sick and tired of things and people and school.

Lots of decisions to be made.

Its driving me crazy.

And if you think that's something to worry about,

its not.

I'm just saying. :D

But thanks for being concerned and calling and texting and asking about me.

Argh.

No computer on weekdays.

Which is okay.

But a little inconvenient.

Especially now.

I'll try to get a video up as soon as i can scrape time together to make and edit one.

Argh.

I miss Alex.

:(

Nobody i want to pass notes to in class more than Alex right now.

But we're not even in the same class! :(

School is brutal.

Totally slaughtering me.

Mostly cause of the lack of people who matter.

But nobody should matter.

I'm suffering from writer's block.

Both song and essay/thoughts/whatever.

I can't read anything.

UGHHH!

I have no idea why.

Guess its time to do what i did again.

Mm... if i have time.

I need to schedule that in.

This is a really long post.

:/

Even the one written today.

Eh. Entahlah.

I can't hear you,

Steffi

Will I See You When I Open My Eyes?

So Student Fellowship Night was FREAKIN AWESOME!


...


Hey guys!
It's nice to see some people still read my blog. ;)
As, I'm sure you can read above, says SFN was awesome!
I mean it!
Please stop giving credit and saying thanks to me
Cause I really didn't do anything.
Half the time Fay was running around, making phone calls,
I was in Cambodia/KL being useless.
Full credit to Fay!
Please stop making me feel guilty for being given credit!
It was so fun that I didn't get to take any pictures!
So, once I get pictures from other people,
I'll show you what you guys missed.
:D


Anyways, apparently school starts in a week.
I had no idea until i read Daryl C.'s pm.
:/
I'm really not looking forward to next year.
Every class got reshuffled.
Which means we wasted a whole year getting to know people who we thought we were going to spend the rest of our high school years with.
And when I say wasted, I don't mean that in a bad way.
It just really makes me mad that the school would screw us over just cause their teachers' can't handle our unity.
Screw it.
So, I'm in Zhong next year.
I have absolutely no idea who my form teacher is going to be.
Absolutely no idea who i'm going to be hanging out with.
I think its very likely i'm going to be a pariah next year.
I don't think i'll have time to get to know every single person all over again.
I don't think i want to get to know every single person all over again.
Next year's gonna be a shitload.
And I know all you people born in 1992 agree with me.


We have one more day in 2008.
I'm really going to miss 2008.
Its the year i met and got close.
The year i really understood.
The year i found out who i could trust.
The year i figured out who i could depend on.
The year i learned not to fall.
The year i learned not to give.
The year i fell.
The year i said hello and goodbye.
The year we grew apart.
The year i missed you guys so much.
The year that's going to be the last.
The year we sang.
The year you smothered.
The year i had great fun.
The year that left me with enough battle wounds for a lifetime.
The year it rocked my world.
The year we fought so hard.
The year we messed up.
The year you left.
The year we talked in crazy banters.
The year we wrote and wrote.
The year we both got screwed over.
The year i forgave you both.
The year i looked but couldn't find.
The year you hated me.
The year i hated you.
The year we loved.
The year i broke.
The year we ran like hell.
The year we hugged like we were about to die.
The year you kissed me.
The year we held onto each other.
The year i didn't call.
The year i'm sorry i didn't spend more time with you. and now you're leaving.
The year we lost track of everything.
The year i called you an assface. hahahahh
The year i skipped class trip for SFN.
The year i got Frank.
The year i went on hiatus from life.
The year i really got into it.
The year i couldn't handle it all.
The year tennis came to be.
The year i had to change beach.
The year i didn't know what to say.
The year i lost it.
The year you came back.
The year you were really there for me.
The year i'm going to miss.
The year i'm going to tell my grandchildren about when i'm old and wrinkly.
The year i shook.
The year we'll remember.
The year we won't soon forget.
The year we have to say goodbye to.
The year we'll have to leave behind.

I hadn't planned that to be so long.
:(
but the memories suddenly all came back.
I had actually said in my head that i would not do such a lame thing
such as make a recap. But....
ahhahahhhaah i'm sorry!!!

I was listening to my old playlists compiled this year.
And everything just came flooding back.
A whole array of emotions suddenly struck me.
And suddenly i was feeling what i was at the time i compiled the playlist.
It was phenomenal.
I know it doesn't sound like a big deal.
But whatever.
Who gives a toilet bowl about what you think?

Please. Don't hate me.
ahahhahahahahhahahahahhahhaha
Love me or hate me.
I am still me.
And i won't conform just so you'll like me.
You can't change me.
So you'd better adjust your expectations.
That way you won't get disappointed.
See? Its a win win situation.
I don't change for you. And you don't get let down.
Don't be sad cause i'm not who you think i am.
Cause it would suck that you're actually wasting your time being bitter all the time.
Cause honestly, I couldn't care less.
:D

As for those of you whom i call friends,
I love you.
Honestly,
You have no idea how many moments of my life became moments in my life
Because of you guys.
I honest to goodness love you guys.
Without you guys, my life would be an empty book.
Please never change?

Damn.
I suck at emotions.
I wayyy too emotional.
You don't have to tell me
Cause I already know that.
But thanks anyways.

Oh, look.
Its 12.30am already.
Which means its officially the last day of the year.
Huzzah!
Joy!
I'm being sarcastic!
Yay!
hahaahhha
What are your new years plans?
Let me know!!!
:D

Goodbye 2008
Warm welcomes to 2009?
Steffi.

We Believed That We Could Change Ourselves

HI EVERYONEZZZ!! I IZ HOMEZZZ!!!

HAHAHAHHA hi guys. I'm home. And why did I type it out again? Only in fear that people who don't know me think that i am one of those people who talk like this: THIS IS JUST AN EXAMPLE! "harloxx. how are eu todayzz?" ohmygosh, get some english lessons or something! hahahahhaha Anywhosenheimergleederfuushen, I am back from KL, Langkawi, Cambodia and anywhere else you've pegged me for going to. I came back around 9 last night. I might tell you about my trip if i weren't in such a rush. Oh, why am i in a rush, you asketh? Why, because it is Christmas Eve! With that, I wisheth thee a Merry Christmas Eve! What are my plans for tonight? Gosh, thou art either a very curious being OR you're too nosey. I'm going to dinner with my family at Little Italy. That place is the absolute best! And then I'm going over to Basel Church for our service. Then head over to Kyrugma House for the presents. *insert evil laughter here* *it should sound something like this* MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHHHADHFAKSJNHFK What are your plans? Currently suffering from food poisoning and diarrhea, Steffi. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE, ALL!! LOVEE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!!! what am i doing? why, i'm sprinkling love to everyone! ;)

No.

I can't believe i lost the only thing you ever gave me.

:(

I am sad now......

not to mention stupid.

I have to find it.
why'd you have to go?
Absolutely a must.

Woooooo Magick!

WOWZZZ!

It's only been a few hours since the retreat ended and already i see so many updates on the Worship Team retreat. hahahahh

You guys are just amazing!

ANYWAYS, it was awesome. And i promise to update on that a little later.

Cause right now, i'm tired. I have a headache. And I'm physically worn out.

Cause after my sister picked me up from Kyrugma House, we went swimming/gymming.

hahahhahhahahhaa. AHHH... i'm so tired.

And if you're wondering why i'm updating my blogs and not sleeping since i am so tired (as proclaimed above), it is because i can't sleep. I tried. :( and failed. again.

Anyways, since its kinda annoying to remember stuff that happened today.

I'll be talking about stuff that is yet to come. For example, my holiday plans and the upcoming "Student Fellowship Night". Which btw, is a horrible name for a party... :/ ahhahaha You have no idea how many people have come up to me asking whether this thing is a church event.

hahahah ITS A PARTY!!! NAME IS SOMETHING LESS LAME, PLEASE! :/ It's going to be on the 29th of December, which i recently was reminded that it's the date of our ex class' class trip reunion. Which i regretfully, cannot attend. :/ I know I sound horrible for picking a party over my ex class, but believe me when i say i have my reasons. And i don't have much of a choice.

As for my holiday plans, I'm leaving on the 11th of December, Thursday to Kuala Lumpur first. Then sometime after that, we're going ot Cambodia, which honestly I do not want to go to. Because quite frankly, I am disinterested in going to see the ruins of some old building that Tomb Raider filmed in. EVEN IF IT'S ONE OF THE SEVEN WONDERS OF THE WORLD! I'll be gone until the 23rd, which is when i return to Kota Kinabalu. :D Even though i'd have made it before Christmas, I will miss Derek's birthday. :'( I'm really sorry, Derek. I didn't plan this! I'll make it up to you, i promise!

Then, comes the Eklektos Christmas party and the "Student Fellowship Night" (seriously, this name will never stick)! So, i don't know. December is, surprisingly a very busy month. :/ And if you're interested in the "Student Fellowship Night", please talk to me, as i am one of the people selling tickets. HIT ME UP FOR INFO AND TICKETS!

I will update on the Worship Team Retreat ASAP. :D I'm tired. I'm talking to Daniel. I'm missing Andrew. I'm posting on Blogger instead of Xanga. I am Steffi. And I'm a paper tiger.