I Want You. I Want You So Bad. Its Driving Me Mad. Its Driving Me Mad.

I've been happier lately.
Its all this 60's music.
Gahhhhhhhh

Does anybody have The Beatles' albums?
Or Songs?
I'll take anything.
Email 'em to me or text me and get me online.
=] Please please please.
mm....
While we're talking about the 60's,
I've actually had this soundtrack since last year,
listening to it without ceasing.
thanks to Jamie C.S.Y.
But i've finally seen the movie
*gasp gasp gasp gasp*
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh
it's an amazaaazing movie. =]
Jim Sturgess' voice is like honey.
heeheeeee
During the course of the movie,
i kept saying,
"OhhhMyyyGoshhhh...
He is soooo cute!"
Then Douglas kept asking me to shut up.
:/
he's my younger brother.ahhhh. i love his english accent.
i love his singing too.
ohmeegosh.
his singing is heartstopping.
xp
his english accent reminds me of Edward.
:/
But that isn't exactly healthy.
xP
Back to Jim,
he can act so well.
He was in Across The Universe(duh), 21, and The Other Boleyn Girl.
=]


hahahhaha but...
he's only just another obsession.
But that doesn't mean he isn't handsome.
hahaha.
I'm aware that I sound like a boy crazy girl.
chhh


Bubbling Joy,
Steffi

Strung Out From Coast to Coast

do you ever wonder what its gonna be like in 3 years?
all your friends would be going off to different parts of the world.
some you'd probably never see again for as long as you live.
even if i hated your guts, i'd still want to see you.
how your life turned out. whether you've changed at all.
whether you got what you deserved
i'd still wanna know.

do you live everyday knowing that there will never be another 12th of July 2008 ever?
are you wasting your time, thinking 'oh tomorrow's another day.'
everyday is the last day.
no, i'm not saying we might die tomorrow.
touch wood.
and again, i'm not saying we won't
but that's not what i'm pointing out.
what i am saying is
are you living?
i don't know.
maybe its too much trig, chem and physics
but its all hitting me a little faster than i'd hoped.

you.
you might never speak to me again.
you might not like what i tell you but you gotta know that i tell you cause i love you and i care about you
you might not be what i'd hoped for
you might wish that i'd crawl under some rock and just die
you might want to spend more time together
you might want to spend more apart
well, what do you want?
i don't know what you expect me to say to you
every time there's that awkward silence when i feel the frisson you always give me
i don't know what you want me to do
when i'm trying my best to not hurt you
i don't know why you can't just take me seriously
when i'm practically screaming it to you, subtly
i don't want you to leave.
not literally leave
but walk out of my life, just like that
i'm not going to make it easy for you
no,
i'm not done with you yet

i know you're hurting right now
and i wish i could do more to help you through this period of time
but i can't help you if you're not willing to let me help.
Please and i repeat,
please tell me when you're ready.
i know you need a grace period and i respect that.
i'll be here waiting for you when you do need me.

now, onto less depressing and confusing things.
Andrew is leaving... again.
:(
i didn't say it wouldn't be depressing,
i just said it'd be less depressing.
*insert dry laughter here*
Daniel Koh's leaving too.... again.
Thomas is migrating to Sacramento.
Sam L. is going back to Perth soon.
Addie left on tuesday.
Paul K. is leaving soon too.
everybody's leaving.
and i'm just not ready.

ahhhh Andrew. I'm gonna miss ya, perv. =)
oh yeah. Went out with Andrew earlier on tonight.
Watched Hancock after dinner at Burger King.
Burger King is loveeeee.
Take care of yourself and don't forget to prepare for our next installment
hahaha. love you.

Confused and Doped,
Steffi.

copy and pasted from modedevie

We're Intertwined

school's been pretty boring.
it like,
you go there to sit around and listen to the excitement in voices surrounding you.

this is our class + 1.

we're pretty gay ey?

me and ming ming. the visiting student from seremban.

he's visiting for 2 weeks. been hanging out.

me and the buck-toothed woman. =]
you know i love you

BACHI THINKS SHE'S CUTE.
hahahhahahha

so entertain me, superconductors!


Irreversibly Stuck,
Steffi.

We'll Take Tomorrow, Baby One Day At A Time

MUAHAHAHAHA i knew one day this place'd be dead.

anywho....
surprise update!

Its Sunday today.
at least for another 18 minutes.
Today was PTS day, which didn't really happen for me
cause BOTH my parents are out of town.
:D
but i went to school anyways.
*halo*

I had to deliver my cupcakes to school for the other parents
so they wouldn't be in such a bad mood when they see how their children did.
*halo again*
heehee.... well, most of the morning i hung out with Alex, my drummer.
I also hung out with Daryl, Ronald, Emily and Piggy and some other random people.

In the afternoon, I went to oneBorneo, which i hate btw, with Jamie, Summer, Jack and Stefan.
We watched Made of Honor which was nice. But its a chick flick and well, i'm a chick... hahahhaha
So i guess it was made for suckers like me and Jamie. xP Then we just sorta.... loitered
&& STEFAN WANTED JACK TO SERVICE HIM SO SO BAD! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA THEN JACK DID SOMETHING WHICH IS TOO WRONG TO SAY ON THE NET. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA IT WAS SO STUPID
but that's what made it fun.

oneBorneo sucks. I don't understand why so many people go
well, I don't like it cause: #1. Its too crowded
#2. Its not even finished yet!
#3. Its even pilak-er than center point and warisan combined
#4. The shops are basically the same stuff you can get in kl
#5. Its not half as fun to shop there than in kl. =] (preferably with Fay)

I'm gonna stop complaining now... cause i'm just rambling.... and i have assembly tmr... -.-
and that audition thing.... which means i needa bring my guitar. gahhhhhh malas oh....
oh lookie! its still Sunday! HOORAHHH hahahahha at least for another 6 minutes.
Make that 5. Now, 4. & 3. and 2. and 1... Happy Monday! gee.... not so happy now. hahahaha

Fighting Paranoia,
Steffi.

Standing on the Rooftops

happy father's day.
=]

love youuuuuu
*mwahhhhhh*

I Sincerely Saw Your Skin For The Very First Time

Hello lovelies.
I'm currently at Genting's Starbucks,
watching my brother while he eats his gummy bears and pretends they're pokemon.
xP
mm, audio update on my xanga.

Maybe I'm Afraid of the Way I Love You

heehee i went to passion camp. xP
just came back yesterday at 6 pm.
considering its past twelve and all....
it was fun.
we bathed in two different rivers,
worshipped God,
and..
i lost my voice.
huzzah!
hahaha
Daniel and SamKu was totally turned on by my new sexy voice.
Ridge kept asking me to sing.
even when he knew i couldn't.
oh pshtt.
hahahahaha
picture timeee

my necklace which never comes off.

that's me.... and the misspelled name of my school. =D

this is where we went.

that's sam's hand which i, so automatically drew on

and this is kavita's hand which i drew when she was extremely tired.
i don't play fair.
:x

Ridge's hand. full of gay gay crap that hopefully you can read.

there are lots of pictures.
but unfortunately,
i'm going to kl tmr
and i haven't started packing yet.
xP
but..
the black nails are back!
hahahaha
you know you missed them too.

and you know i missed you guys too!!!
=]

heart,
stef

p.s. i'm probably gonna do an audio update soon!

Confessingly, This Is The First Time I've Loved You

Mmmm~
You know what?
I feel really giddy.
For no reason at all.
Maybe its just me thinking about that night.
*giggles*

i'm so glad that you guys came and made amazing memories with me. (:

Fay is my besterest friend in the whole entirerest world.

stupid blogger won't let me do the heart emoticon

Joy looks like something out of an old hollywood glamour mag. heehee

MY Max and MY Vern

My Fay, My Emily and My Sam

My boys. xP

My Stalker and her Stalker

My Ronald and My David.

My Frank Butler. :)

okay. enough of that.
hehehehe
our games were fun to say the least
It wasn't a very good party though.
I guess i only hung out with the few people.
&& i feel a little bad.
So i apologize

Those people up there,
yeah, they're all mine.

heehee.
man,
my laugh has been getting gayer everyday.
:s
hearts,
stef.

p.s. happy birthday, steffi!
sighhhh
gay, i know

this is love

hey guys,
its time to
burn those books
and
go crazy with your friends

ohhkayyy
so maybe the burning of books isn't such a good idea.
but you get my point,
right?


heart,
stef

On a Lighter Scale

Today, I had to babysit and entertain 7 eleven year olds.
Practically hell. hahahahhaha
Anything for Douglas.


sigh... so much for studying. :(
Fear of failing is creeping up on me.

heart,
stef

Rerouting the Blood to My Heart Instead

Happy Birthday, Douglas!
I love you even though sometimes you claim to want to strangle me.
=]
btw,
you look fat here.
you'll get your present on your real birthday.
;)
<3

Fay's Birthdayyyy

Yesterday was Fay's birthday~!
oh yeah... it was awesome
even if she said it wasn't
=]

Fay posing for the cameras
Me and the loveeely birthday girl
Me and Lalitha.... my lips look weird
Benji and me.
he looks so good here
that gay transformer/toothfairy guy is max. hahaahah
Emily, Shanna and me
Ralph and me.
he's so zhan kan?
Me and Shanna
Raul looks weird.
Me and cousin Jude
I don't know why i was laughing...
Credit: Lalitha
Me and Lalitha being dumbasses during club

Daddy got me a voice recorder.
It's totally awesome.
Too bad blogger doesn't let you upload clips
they go on my xanga site.
So, go check them out!
=]

hearts,
Steffi

p.s. love you fayyy!
<3>

Welcomes in order?

Hey guys!

I haven't posted here in a long time. But here i am.
So i have a new blog. It's right there on the left under blogs.
I might post here once in a while.
But if i don't, you understand.
=]

hearts,
steffi

I feel so blah

I have absolutely no idea why i feel so blah right now. Its kinda weird, cause i'm usually a pretty happy person. Sometimes even a bit high. Weird.

Hmm..... So this was basically, this was my day today.

Since our room is really dusty, me, Jam and Char had to sleep in the family room. I really dont mind that part. I mean, we get to watch tv all night, which we did. Me and Jam stayed up until 4 in the morning, watching Season 3 One Tree Hill. It was so exciting. After a few hours of watching One Tree Hill, namely @ 4 a.m. Jam said that we should go to sleep. So she turned the telly off and we went to bed. She kept saying that i should really skip Sunday Service since i'd only get 2 hours of sleep.

The next morning, I woke up a bit later than usual. 6.30 a.m. But i got ready on time. By the time i was ready, it was only 7 a.m. and Cathy usually comes at around 7.30 a.m. So i crawled back onto bed in hopes of snatching a few more Zs.

I awoken to the sound of Vanessa Hudgen's Promise, my ringtone. Cathy said she was outside. I grabbed my bag and ran downstairs. I pressed the button to open the gate and ran to the front door, getting ready to run outside. I was surprised to find the gate still closed. So i pressed it again, and again. It still didnt open. So, i tried the remote in my bag. It still didnt open. So, i thought back to the night before. Mom said we should off the main switch of the gate since our gate was retarded. Once i switched on the main switch for the gate, i went to church with Cathy.

After Sunday Service, we had breakfast with the guys from Basel. After breakfast, David sent me home. Uh-huh. This is totally random and vague.

You Are 48% Evil

You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side. Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.

How Evil Are You?

uh-huh.

Stef

CF trip

Today we had our Christian Fellowship outing. It was ROCKIN'!!!!

After school, i met up with Cathy and we waited for my car. Which didnt come. So yeah. We talked @ the 'little garden' until it was 12.30 p.m. uh-huh.

We walked to the CCA building. On the way there, we met Jimmy. He said they didnt have the key, so they were all on the floor of the 4th floor praticing songs. Once the conversation ended, we started walking again. This time, we bumped into ms. kwan. She said the teacher with the keys to our meeting room was in the hall having gratitude lunch with the senior threes. Whatever. We spent 30 minutes on the floor of the hallway of the 4th floor. Singing.

After a while, me and Cathy decided to go check if any rooms were left unlocked. When we reached the 6th floor, we saw Bonny. We tried the second door and it was open!! So me and Cathy ran down two floors and told them.

We all moved into the room that was supposed to be for the prefects and the monitors and sat down. Quite a number of people were missing @ the prayer meeting. But it didnt matter. I didnt really have transport to the outing @ tanjung aru so i asked Tamar if i could follow. She said it was ok.

After the meeting, me and Tamar started walking down the flights of stairs of the CCA building. She asked if she could come to my house so her mom would come to my house to pick us up. I couldnt say no.

Long story short, we got onto the car and headed for my house. Uh-huh. I'm gonna cut this short again. @ 3.30 p.m. I got ready and gathered the cutlery. Tamar's mom came and we got on the car. uh-huh.

When we reached there, her mom dropped us off @ the food court. I called Cathy to ask her where the meeting was. She said it was between the yatch club and the hotel, which meant that we were way off. Tamar said she wanted to get something to eat first, so i waited while she got her fried bananas (it sounds so disgusting in English).

We started the walk to the beach. On the way there, we saw a car stop by the roadside. Somebody fromt he back was waving like a loon. That was Max. Janice asked us to climb aboard her vehicle (lol) but it really was no point since we were like 30-40 steps away from the place. So we just continued walking. When we got there, I saw a mouse in the drain. It was disgusting. haha

We put our stuff down and talked for about 5 minutes. Then, Ian gathered us and said we should start playing the games. The first game was pop each other's balloons. Well, i dont need to explain the game, do i? uh-huh

After we finished that game, we played in the sea for a while. We spotted 3 jellyfish. it was a beautiful sight. And we had a sandball fight. We had fun, of course. After a long time, we headed for shore after Ian called us round to play the 2nd game. It was Captain ball.

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CAptain ball: two teams. two goalkeeps. one ball. goalkeeps on opposite sides of the court. players on other side.
Goal: goalkeeps catch the ball, which gives each team one mark.
Rules: 3 steps only when the ball is in hand. No snatching from girls. XP
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lol. it was fun. I'm not exactly sure who won. cause halfway through, Tamar wanted to change her clothes since she was all wet. I accompanied her. When we got back, everyone else was eating and it was pretty dark. Nobody could tell of a bug had fallen into their food. But what we dont know wont hurt us right? hehe. Eww.

We grabbed our plates and cups and sat by a dune. Since it was really dark, we turned our handphone lights on and ate that way. A sunset was the most beautiful you could ever see, especially if its by the beach. It was realy romantic, but there weren't any couples in our CF, so it was quite a waste. But all the same, it was beautiful. Even though the sandflies and mosquitos were killing us. haha.

We all sat there for quite a while. It was just a silent yet beautiful moment. In our minds, we were all thinking the same thing. I think... :P

It was a wonderful trip. ROCKIN'!!!!!!!

updater

There are some guys here to move our new cupboard into the family room. Its gonna rock. we're gonna have a library in the family room. How cool is that? I'll make sure i post a few pictures of the 'new' house next time.

Haha. I'm enjoying the changes in our house. It looks totally different. Totally new. It makes our house look like a modern house, even though thats not neccessarily a good thing. Cause a modern house means a present house, which means it will have a newer look to it. And i enjoy this house being the cottage-ey, cosy type of house.

Basically, I'm typing this out in Notepad cause they're moving the cupboard and they had to unplug the internet. So, I'm going to copy/paste this onto my blog. That way, it'll be like its happening now.

Mmmm. I'm currently listening to a list of songs over and over again cause i think they're good. And since i have totally nothing to do, here's the list:
1. Can't break through - Busted
2. Everything you ever wanted - Hawk Nelson
3. You dont see me - Josie & the pussycats
4. Welcome to the black parade - My Chemical Romance
5. Ready Aim Misfire - New Years Day
6. Sunrise sunset - New Years Day
7. Pressure - Paramore
8. Emergency - Paramore
9. Never let this go - paramore
10. My heart - Paramore
11. Holly... I'm the one - Son of Dork
12. Sick - Son of Dork
13. Wear me down - Son of Dork
14. When it all falls apart - The Veronicas
15. 4Ever - The Veronicas
16. Everything I'm not - The Veronicas
17. Without you - Justincase Featuring Michelle Branch
18. Dont cry for us - Justincase
19. Diary of Jane - Breaking Benjamin
20. Collide - Howie Day
21. Someday we'll know - Mandy Moore and Jonathan Foreman

Yep. This is my list these few days. You should check them out sometime. I think they're nice, but dont need to take my word for it. I'm no critic.

Exams. I think i did pretty well this time. I passed all my subjects, including chinese and chinese history. Even if they were borderline. My average for the whole year is 70. something. I'm number 24 in class. I'm not supposed to know that, but helping teacher do stuff has its benefits. but keep in mind, i am not an apple polisher. She asked for assistance.

Sports day. Next year, i'll be in Green House. Ooh rah! We had our so called 'telematch' to replace our cross-country, which i really like. Three days altogether. Today was the last day. We had the Tug-a-war today. We kinda sucked, but we're ok. Its just a game anyways. I cant wait for the dancing practice to start. I'm pumped.

Yesterday, me, Char Bhar and Tommy watched Jarhead. It was really good, even though they did swear a lot. Check it out.

Dad discovered a Taekwondo training centre right opposite our neighbourhood. Today (1/11/06), Charlene, Douglas and Tommy went there for the first lesson. The teacher is a Barry Voon, from Korea. He's got a 5 and 8 dan. I hope i got that right, Jamie (Chong). So, Dad made this thing compulsory, so i have to go tomorrow. Great.... I'm so thrilled. Problem with this thing, is that i dont really have the interest. But i dont know, maybe i'll get sucked in. Not literally, of course. Hope it goes well. Oh yeah. Jamie (Chong), mom and dad asks if you have any interest in going for lessons, cause training there's better.

mmm... So I wanted to get Vanessa Hudgens' album, V. but Jamie said she'd have to order it if i really wanted it. And that'd take 4 to 6 weeks. She'd be back by then. So i'm just going to have to look for it in KL at the end of the year.


I think thats about it for now. I cant think of anything else to write about. But i will when i do think of something else. Till then, this is Stef.

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That was last night. When the internet was down.

This morning, somebody kicked my mattress from below. No! She wasnt under the bed! I stay on a double-decker. I looked down to see a camera pointing at me and a freak in my mom's nightie. My first guess was Charlene. So i just popped my head back up. But Charlene never kicks my mattress. Plus, Charlene left at 8 something to get to tuition and it was impossible for her to still be in a nightie. Ok. I looked down again.

What i saw shocked me like when a hamster would eat its children!! Jamie was lying on her bed with the camera still pointed at me. I jumped onto Charlene's side of the bed. Jamie was only supposed to back on the 6th. FREAKY. haha. And she's a total lobster right now for spending her holis in Gold Coast. A TOTAL LOBSTER. Hahaha. So funny.

I might post one with more details later. Right now i have to get bowls and milk and spoons for us to have cereal. Later

Stef.